Regret

Epilogue

5 years later…

"Pharm, I couldn't thank you enough! I'm so glad to see you again!", Team said hugging his friend with tears in his eyes.

"What are you talking about, Team? We met each other the last time you went to New York in spring!", Pharm giggled. "Also, I could never miss my best friend's wedding!", he blinked at Team who blushed instantly.

It wasn't really a surprise when Team announced for him that he and Win would get married, but it sure was a surprise to get invited to be his best man. It wasn't easy, considering who Win had asked to be his, but he still had to be present on his best friend's biggest day.

"Let's go to our seats, Pharm? The photographer said she wants a take from us at the table…", the baritone voice called him, making his whole body tremble.

Pharm got back to Thailand on Friday and had spent an unhealthy amount of time by Dean's side. Since both of them had such important roles in the wedding, Win and Team didn't let their old problems get in the way. And, being honest, they wouldn't do anything to ruin the date either. Still, it was hard to handle the situation and keep a cool mood the whole time.

"I've heard her, thank you very much!", Pharm said stomping his way to their table leaving a beaming Dean behind. It was hard, but he could feel the other male slowly opening up for him a bit more. Or at least, he thought.

Pharm had changed a lot since the last time they've seen each other. His black hair was now a shade of brown with some golden strands in the middle. It was like the sun was kissing his head and Dean could swear he was a bit jealous of this idea. He knew from Win that Pharm was single and he thought this could be his chance to make things right.

After watching Pharm running away from every situation he had settled to make them talk in private, now the younger wouldn't have a chance. They were asked by the photographer to dance together for a few shots and the band was probably part of the set up because they started to play a soft melody.

"I'm sorry… May I?", Dean whispered standing in front of Pharm with a hand scratching his nape.

"Why not?", Pharm said blatantly, but his heartbeats were racing like a horse.

Dean's hands were exactly like Pharm recalled: huge, but gentle. Very warm around his waist. Also Dean's cologne was something Pharm would have chosen for him, not too strong, but still screamed "Phi Dean"... which made his thoughts drift away a bit.

"Pharm, can we please talk now?", Dean asked and he snapped out of his trance.

"I don't have anything to talk to you, Phi Dean.", Pharm said without facing him.

"Not exactly what I wanted, but you still can hear me.", he replied to what Pharm shrugged.

"I love you, Pharm. After all this time, I still love so much it’s killing me.", Dean sighed, which made Pharm stare at him. "’But I also know I don't deserve you. I just want you to know how much I regret my actions."

Pharm sighed. "Love was never the problem, P'Dean…", he finally said.

They were swinging on the dancefloor and didn't notice the photographer had ended her job a few minutes ago. The warmth of each other's bodies made both of them forget about all the rest and focus on themselves.

"The problem is that you lied to me. You didn't tell me you were Del's brother and your mother…", Pharm interrupted himself, still too bitter to bring that woman to their conversation.

"I can't change my mother, Pharm. Believe me, I've tried all these years. She's still the same. But I can try to make it up for you. I was in a bad place and tried to get revenge, instead, I've met the most precious person I've ever had the chance to."

Dean's words made Pharm blush.

"Please, Pharm… give Phi a chance…", Dean asked and Pharm saw something in his eyes. They were reflecting his own desire.

"You would have to work a lot for that!", Pharm offered.

"I'm willing to do that!", he replied with a smirk on his face.

"And you would have to make up for the time we've spent apart to…"

"You were the one who asked for tha--", Dean started to say, but a sharp look from Pharm made him change his line, "I'll make sure to treasure you and our love every single day of my life, my good boy!".

Pharm giggled and he felt like a big weight was lifted from his shoulders. "I'm too old for you to call me like this, Phi!"

"You're always going to be my one and only good boy, Pharm!", Dean said without hesitation. "I'm so sorry, Pha--", he tried to say, but the smaller male tiptoed and kissed him on the lips, stopping him.

Dean took a few seconds to recognize what was happening, but soon after corresponded passionately.

"Let's not start this new story of ours with regret in the middle, okay? Let's make room for love… our love…", Pharm smiled and Dean knew the sun could never kiss his hair because the sun itself was before him, arms around his nape and a smile on his face.

"I love you so, so much, my good boy!"

"Good, because I love you too, my silly Phi!"

The couple kissed again and we can't say they lived a perfect life, because this surely isn't real. But they did have nice moments to remember and a happy life side by side. This is all we mere humans can ask for, right?

[The End]

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Notes:

This is it! I know it was short and could be more elaborated, but I wanted to make it quick just to try a few things! It was my first time writing angst and I had so much fun! Thank you so much for the comments, votes and support! Love, love! See you! 💙