Echoes of Metamorphosis

Chapter 11

I was finally gonna start testosterone! And I'm thankful that Damian is here for moral support and to help me through this journey. I don't think I could imagine going through this alone. "I wish it was this easy to start my transition when I was human." I said to Damian. He sort of just looked at me, sadly and said, "Well, I guess I'm glad you didn't because you wouldn't be with me right now, but I'm sorry you were never able to start all of this.." He continued while keeping eye contact with me the whole time we were talking.

I think I was kinda glad too, because I wouldn't have met him.

As I was getting my first sachet ready, I was thinking that maybe I did have feeling for him. I didn't have any ideas of how I could hide these feelings, because I was sure that he could somehow tell. I remember that I had a box of silicone gloves in one of my drawers, "Hey, could you look in the top drawer next to my bed, there should be a box with gloves in there." I asked as I was trying to hype myself up to actually do this.
'Would he think any less of me if I'm a trans person who possibly has feelings for him?' I thought to myself as he bought the glove over. "Thanks." I said quickly.
"You're welcome handsome." He said with a wink.
I swear he just called me handsome and he winked at me. again. He handed me the glove and I slid it onto my hand, then opened up the sachet and I asked very shyly but nicely if Damian could squeeze it onto just below my shoulder, which he did and the I rubbed it all in with my gloved hand.
"And thats me all done for today. Just have to do that again tomorrow and for the rest of my life" I then continued to explain all of this to him and answer any questions he had. "Next thing on the to do list is Top Surgery. I don't think I want to get bottom surgery though as I don't have much dysphoria down there. I am hoping that I can do surgery soon." I said. Then Damian looked like he had a brilliant idea as he was thinking hard, his forehead had the little wrinkles that happened when in deep thought. "Hey so, this might sound crazy but, I think I just hatched an idea. So, I was thinking that in the next month or so we could go down to the nearest hospital and 'talk' to a surgeon and see if they could fit you in to do it all then and there." He explained as I was thinking about if I really wanted to go through with it that soon.

I then thought that I may as well give it a shot and ask him out on a date, I got nervous thinking about what to say but it just all came out all at once. "Doyoumaybewanttogoonadatewithme?" "Umm, what?" He said looking confused about what I had said. "I just wanted to know if you wanted to go on a date with me?" I asked not meaning for it to end in a question. Then he looked kind of happy as a smile creeped on his adorably handsome face, "Yeah, of course I would! I'd be honoured." Then I smiled from ear to ear and said, "Okay, how about tonight? At 8?"
"It's a date!" He said with a spring in his step as he walked out of my room into his own. I quickly looked at the clock and saw that it was around 6:30pm so I had an hour and a half to get ready and feed. I headed downstairs to the kitchen to grab a blood bag and bought it back upstairs so I could enjoy it in peace. I guzzled it down so fast that I didn't notice that I had finished it in just 30 seconds. I think I'm just a little nervous for this date.
I still had just over an hour to get ready so I took the time to send a message to Quinn.
"Hey, I'm going on a date in like an hour and I'm about 5 hours on Testosterone" I smiled as I sent the text. I could tell she was on her phone because she replied so fast. "Hey, that's amazing! I'm so happy for you! Have you noticed any changes yet?" She asked, and I really had to think about that. Have I had any changes yet? I mean, it's not even been a full day! Then I started to feel a slight pain that was like I was starting my time of the month but it was different. Like something was moving down there. I told myself that I'd check that out later.
I looked at the clock again and saw that it was 7:40pm meaning that I only had 20 minutes to get ready. "Oh shit, I don't want to look bad! I'll have to hurry this shit up!" I said and noticed that my voice was already slightly lower, just slightly. "Oh boy, I think these changes are gonna happen pretty quickly then." I said as I was rushing round my room to grab a new set of clothes and some cologne and finally my favourite pair of shoes. By the time I was done, Damian was standing by my door and looking as handsome as ever, if not more. "Shall we go?" He asked. I walked over to him and just nodded.

We said our goodbyes to the others and walked out the door into the darkness. Perfect. There was just enough light shining from the street lights for us to see where we're going. Not that we needed the extra light. We started walking in the direction of town and decided to go to one of the shops and have a drink. We were making small talk when he said, "You smell really good, what're you wearing? I generally want to know." I smiled and replied "Thank you, I'm wearing my favourite cologne that my best friends bought me last year. And I had a blood bag a few hours ago, so you can probably smell that too."

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I think this is where I'm going to stop this chapter. So, you'll have to find out what happens on their date in chapter 12! I am really proud of myself for writing a chapter over 1000 words, like go me!