{CaptainSwan} - One shots

Heart of Gold - missed scene

Hey. So this is my very first drabble or whatever in English. I'm European, and still learning the language, so please, don't judge me if i have mistakes.

Thank you

Emma's POV

We had been searching for the author for hours, and still, he was nowhere to be found. Being with my parents didn't really help either, considering that they lied to me about my existence. The only reasons I didn't freak out were Henry and Killian, who helped us looking for that crazy man too. They both knew about my parents' lie, and it was great that they didn't try to push me to talk about it. They just let me be, which is exactly what I need in rough situations.

Everyone was exhausted, so Mary Margaret and David decided to go home and get some sleep. Although I felt tired too, I couldn't really imagine to be able to sleep. There was a lot going on in my head and I also didn't want to spend the night in my parents' loft.

"It's okay, Henry." I said when I saw that he couldn't decide wether to leave with Mary Margaret and David or stay with me. "Go home with your grandparents."

He released a small smile and came closer. "Are you sure you're gonna be okay, mom?"

"Yeah. Right now I just need time to figure things out." I smiled back at him, and gave him a hug. "Good night!"

"You're not gonna sleep in your bug, are you?" He asked with worries.

"No. I'll be alright. See you tomorrow." I tried to convince him, failing. It mush have been too obvious that I wasn't okay, though I tried to hide it.

"Okay, just stay with Killian. Love ya." He gave me a last smile, and ran after my parents. I turned around, and I wasn't surprised to find Hook in front of me.

"You alright, love?" He reached for my hand and pulled me closer.

"I'm fine. Like I said, I need time to think." We started walking, god knew where. We stayed quiet for a while, both deeply buried in our thoughts. I liked the fact that the silence between us never had been awkward. I guess we both knew that sometimes we have to solve things alone.

Of course, we ended up by the docks. I always go there to think, the sounds of the sea and the seagulls help me calm down. And Killian - it's pretty obvious he loves to be around the docks, practicly being on the sea is his home.

"You haven't talked about how is having the Jolly back, you know." I broke the silence, realizing that these past days had been too busy, and we hadn't even had the chance to talk about things like having his ship back. But I didn't want him to feel that I didn't care about the Jolly Roger. It was really important to me. Otherwise, he traded it for me, which I owned him a lot for.

"Well, there's not much to talk about, love." He said simply, with a wide smile.

"Of course there is. I mean this ship has been the most important thing for you."

After a few seconds of silence, he responded. "You're feeling guilty."

I raised an eyebrow to hide what I felt, because yes, I felt guilty every day since he had told me about it. But I suppose there's no escape from the open-book thing. "Look, Swan." He stopped walking, turned around to face me, but I wasn't sure that I wanted to hear it. "The Jolly Roger used to be the most important. But I would trade it all over again for you, never regretting even for a second."

I sighed. "I just don't know how the hell I deserved this. Look at me. I'm a mess, always have been. Life of the savior."

"But you're not gonna feel this way forever." I loved how Killian tried to make me feel better. Somehow he had always been able to manage to make me calm down.

"You're a life-saver, Captain." I said with a small grin, and kissed him. "And now, I want a permission to go aboard your ship."

"You're always welcomed there, love. I can assure you, it's the best place to think." He squeezed my hand and helped me get on the Jolly.

I remember the last day I spent on that ship. We were trapped in the past with Hook, and to get back, I had to keep the old Captain occupied. Well, the only way was to kiss him. Although Killian have never admitted it, I'm sure he was jealous for the past himself. Our relationship was a little complicated then.

"What are you thinking about, Swan?" He asked me gently, because I had stayed quite for a long time.

"Last time I was here it was so different."

"Aye, and much more unpleasant." He laughed, and put his hands on my waist. I smiled up at him.

"Don't say you didn't enjoy the kiss."

"I wouldn't say that lass if I remembered. But it's alright I guess, because now, I can kiss you whenever I want to." He smirked, and pressed his lips against mines. The kiss was soft and slow, full of love. "You really should rest."

"I know." I sighed, and broke apart from him, looking at the waving sea. Being with him in his ship was the most relaxing thing I could have wished for. "Do you think I can...you know..."

"Of course." He interrupted, which was something I was really grateful for. "You can stay as long as you want to. And now come, I leed you to the captain's quarter." I nodded, without any answer. I was too exhausted to talk.

He put some pillows and blankets on his bed, and helped me take off my leather jacket and my boots. And after that, he was ready to leave the room. I shouldn't have been surprised, he has always been a gentleman.

"I'm not gonna let you leave your room." I told him sleepily. He turned back to face me, and gave me a tiny smile.

"It's okay."

Such a gentleman, he didn't even notice that it wanted to be an invitation...sort of. "I mean I want you to stay."

"Oh." His face softened, and he walked back to the bed. He slipped under the sheets carefully, and still being a gentleman, lied as far away from me as he could. 'He's impossible.' I thought and slipped closer to him. He finally understood what i wanted, and put his arm around my shoulders.

I couldn't imagine a better way to spend the night. Listening him breathing and his heart beating slowly lulled me to sleep. "Thank you." I whispered, almost asleep. He didn't answer, just pulled me closer, and kissed my forehead.

In the morning, I woke up in his arms, and before I realized this whole drama was continuing, I smiled, because I felt safe with him.