Monster // Eren x Fem Reader

- ACT.2 - [ KALEIDOSCOPE ]

MONSTER
[EREN X READER]

Two nights ago,
She got that look in her eyes.
Kaleidoscope,
But that's only half the time.
Three days before,
She told me that I don't even try.
She's crazy, through,
I guess there's something wrong inside.
Maybe you're right,
Maybe this is all that I can be.
But what if it's you,
And it wasn't me ?
What do you want from me ?

[...]

Four weeks ahead,
I thought that I should think some more.
I'm fucked in the head,
And my mind is turning into a whore,
Five months go by,
And I thought about letting her go.
She's crazy, though,
And I guess she took control...

______

Last night I dreamed of you again.
You swim your way up through my veins,
Into my soul until you've reached my brain.
You are the greatest part of me.
So if dreaming's the only time you're near,
Then waking up will be my nightmare.
And at that very moment,
I jumped out of my bed.
Trying to remember all the things you said :
"Ronnie, I adore you, but nothing really lasts forever".
You gotta let me know.
Don't leave me hanging,
And complicate it.
All we are is setting ourselves up to fall apart.
Don't leave me hanging on.
I am a lesson you will learn,
I'd take away your pain and hurt,
But I'm not strong enough to be your cure.
I am the battle you will lose.
You think that you are saving me,
But I'm the one that's saving you so.
And at that very moment,
You appeared in my bed.
Looked you in your eyes,
And then I finally said :
"Baby, I adore you, but this ain't gonna last forever" .

________

Pick up the phone,
Answer your text.
Well I apologize about last night,
I really did not mean to disrespect you.
You better be alone.
No I'm not obsessed.
But if I catch you with somebody else,
You know that I'm gonna be upset.
I truly believe that the reason I'm here,
Is to tell you the truth that your ending is near.
One day you must look at yourself in mirror.
I still don't think you are hearing me clear.
You must understand,
That our friendship is done.
Justified by the person that you have become,
And because of the fact that enough is enough,
Now I'm the one that is holding the gun.

______

I'm looking for reasons,
I'm begging and pleading,
I'm dreaming of calling you mine.
You keep me stu-stu-stuttering,
Stumbling,
Fumbling over my lines.
Without you girl,
I'm not alright,
I'm not okay.
No,
Don't give up on me,
Wait,
it's not what it seems.
Now we can't stop this tragedy.
And it's back to the start.
[...]
I'm just being honest,
I'm creeping and crawling,
I'm kissing the top of your head.
We're rocking and rolling,
We're touching and moaning,
And making a mess of your bed.
Can someone help ?
She shot me dead,
I can't be saved.

________

I'll keep you up until the sunset.
Speaking in tongues yeah we ain't done yet.
Don't take my verses out of context,
I know it's weighing on your conscience.
And I'll keep leading you on,
If you keep leading me into your room.
The drinks are all gone,
But that's fine baby, so am I.

________

I wanna make your heart beat,
Run like rollercoasters.
I wanna be a good boy,
I wanna be a gangster,
'Cause you can be the beauty,
And I could be the Monster.
I love you since this morning,
Not just for aesthetic
I wanna touch your body,
So fucking electric.
I know you scared of me,
You said that I'm too eccentric.
I'm crying all my tears,
And that's fucking pathetic.