Endlessly

NO

I would woke up in the middle of the night saking and crying
You would hold me so thight it was so comforting
But when the morning was rising
The comfort was already gone
Cause I woke up and your hand was already under my short
It's crazy how you don't see it until you're out of the relationship
All those joke about rape
You know they always made me nervous
So please tell me was it always a lie or should I be scared of your thinking?
Cause at this point I start to realize why you were always insisting
It's hard to admit it
After the third who do it
The first was a mistake
The second was problematic
But the third is just too much when will it's stop
Is it my fault?
Is it me
Is on my forehead is wrote you can touch me
Cause when I say no they don't hear it
I keep saying no
But it's so tiring
They keep insisting
So once I break I just take of my shirt and let them play
It's so invalidating cause I ended up saying yes
But after four no does one yes equal consent
I don't think so
Not in my head
I feel disgusted by myself
I wanna hide
I wanna cry
But it's my fault cause I said yes