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Chapter 8

Alaska's PoV

Bakit ang tahimik?Bakit ang lamig?
Anong nangyari ba kagabi?Pinagtangkaan ko ba siyang patayin kaya hindi siya nangungulit sa'kin?Why am I acting like-

"We'll go home pagkatapos nating mag-breakfast" sino ba nagbuhos sa kanya ng ice water?

"Are you okay?" I asked as I sipped a coffee on the table.

"Yeah, why?" What did I do wrong last night?

"What happened last night?" I asked as he grabbed a piece of chocolate in a small fridge here in our hotel room.

"There's no problem! Ano ba!" Why is he so annoyed? I'm just asking.

I decided not to talk to him.

We're finished eating and still, he's not the makulit na Lyle I've known. Something's bothering me, I don't know what, but there is somethin' Talaga. AAAH! Why am I conyo?

"North" I called my younger brother. North is also cold at me. What is happening? What did I do? Did I do something?

I tried to calm myself and not to think about it too much pero the way he stares at me. He's.....There's something. He's hurting? I don't know. He's mad? I don't think so.

I finally decided to sleep. My head still hurts, hindi ako nakainom ng gamot kanina. 

"You have ibuprofen?" I asked him. Pops is the one who's driving, nasa front seat is Nana. Magkatabi kami dito. North is on his shoulder, sleeping.

"Wala" he answered, casually. I'm not comfortable with this.  All I can do is drink water. Inabutan ako ng kahihiyan that's why I didn't ask Pops to pull over.

I'll just wait until I die.  x-x

~

Masakit talaga ulo ko kaya I went straight to North's room.

"North" mahinang tawag ko sa kanya.

"I hate you na" he blurted.

"I still have a headache, North. What did I do wrong?" I raised a question.

"You hurt Koa. Didn't you realize what happened to both of you? And then you're intoxicated last night pa" he said sadly.

"You're into Lyle than me? You're nominating me to Lyle? North, I'm your sister. I'm older than you" I maintain calm in front of my brother. Lyle controlled him.

"Because I want you to be happy" he responded to me immediately. I remained silent "Even if you didn't tell me about your feelings, I knew you're not feeling well. You're not happy, ate. I just want you to be happy with Kuya Lyle" My brother is concerned to me.

I cuddled him tightly. "You're just keeping on pretending that you're happy but you aren't" I can feel that he's crying. Nawawala pagka-conyo niya kapag nalulungkot.

"Ate is happy. She's just not alright as of now" I said to him in assurance "Don't cry" dagdag ko.

"I don't wanna see you acting in front of me " North knows my pain. I just want to get rid away from this but it's difficult as I've wanted.

I already drank ibuprofen to lower the pain in my head. I sleep beside him. I didn't know North is affected so extensively.

"I'll give him a chance naman, North". I said softly.

I got up and reached the kitchen. I got thirsty and drank all of the water from  the water bottle.

I saw him reading a newspaper but he's starting staring at me. I turned at him and asked home directly, " Are you mad at me?"