Infinimage

Chapter 0

I made this diary for myself despite the fact that I know it's ridiculous, but I did it nevertheless so I could remember the memories that will eventually be erased as time passes.

Let me introduce myself as Ben, a middle-aged man in my thirties and I'm just an ordinary man who truly finds happiness in farming.

My wife gave birth to my son and three daughters and I'm content and happy that I met them all in my life..

My wife and I were and still are in love. We're making the most of our time by living life to the fullest, even though it's tiring at times. I made sure to pay close attention to my children, even though my son appears to get more attention. In the past, I used to want a son so that someone could succeed and take over the farm. And the day my wife gave him to me was one of the happiest days of my life because up until that point, I thought I'd never have a son.

As the only son... I gave him most of my attention, to the point where my daughters are envious because their little brother gets all the attention. That made me laugh because it was so sweet. I'm not perfect, but I try my hardest to have a happy family even though I'm not perfect and I'm fine with that.

But some dark rift opened, and it's called a portal, where the demon world came from and therefore the demon king, the most vilest existence that ever lived, appeared. It was actually fine because we were far away from the invasion. But the worst part is the moment the so-called awakened people were born on the same day as the dark rift appeared.. I had the short end of the stick.

Awakened people are the people who got hit by the abnormal energy that came from the dark rift and therefore augment their innate talent for magic or aura and to top it all off, had a unique skill in their arsenal that made them stand out compared to regular mages and swordsmen.

At first, it was actually fine. I was lucky because I had no choice but to join the army, and the unique skill gave me the chance to see my family one more time. Being awakened was the reason why I survived until the demon king got defeated twenty years later, and because of his defeat, I can happily go home to my family without some sort of complication and retire. But the only problem was, I DON'T GROW OLD!

Because of my special skill called [Immortality], I outlived everyone.. I thought it was just something of a super regeneration.. and was the reason why I survived twenty years of hellish life defending my country and the world for the sake of my family.

When I was in the war, my daughters wrote me a letter in which they informed me that they had married and that I had grandchildren without my knowledge, which made me angry and regretful because I could have told their husbands to buzz off and scram! But there was nothing I could do. I'm a long distance away from them. 

While my son informed me that he was joining the war and assured me that everything would be fine because he had magic, I became enraged because he knew nothing about war. Then tried to convince the higher-ups that he would join the army and the war over my dead body, and did everything I could to keep him from becoming a soldier, which I was able to do because I was an important asset during the war and all the merits I earned during that time and wrote to my child that if he does it again, I will temporarily leave the war and kick his ass but alas, I can't afford to do that as the life and death of my subordinates is in my hands, and i don't want to see any more grieving parents as a parent.

I know it's unfair to other people, but I don't care because the reason I joined the war in the first place was to protect my family from the pain and suffering I and those around me experienced.

When I got home, my wife jokingly said that I looked five years younger than she remembered, and I shrugged, thinking it was just the uniform, which made me grin.

And we spent time with my wife happily until we grew old, or at least.. she did.. She looked like she slept peacefully on the bed as she died of old age. We had fun moments together. And my heart felt lonely when I realized that she's gone.

And then... I outlived my daughters and my son. My grandchildren and great-grandchildren... This made me realize... how lonely I am and would be in the future. And I blamed it all on my immortality and asked, "Why me?" Of all people

I couldn't remember the names of my loved ones, when or how I changed my name, or even what my previous name was in the first place, which is why I made this diary: in case everything I cared about during my life was lost, including my and my family's identities, while constantly changing my name once every fifty years, in my opinion,

Sleep is something of an escape. But the ultimate bliss would be the Void of Death.

I know that humans are social beings... when they are lonely. They merely... die.. But I'm constantly wondering why I'm not dying because what I'm doing now isn't living. 

i wish to die.. 

i...

wanted to die.

I should have died with the love of my life in the first place, and writing this diary to recall happy memories ended up making me cry... This special ability, which I thought was a gift that would save me countless times, turned out to be a curse, leaving me so frustrated that I attempted suicide numerous times. When I realized my family, who knew and loved me, was no longer there…

My son, my daughters, my grandchildren... I was so sad when they died earlier than me. So I told my second eldest great-grandchild, specifically my eldest great-granddaughter when she was alive, my intentions to tell people rumors that I'm dead and didn't let my great-great-grandchildren know who I was because I couldn't bear the thought of their deaths flashing right in front of my eyes. So I never tried to appear in their happy lives and just...

Left..

-The End

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Author's Note: I'm not gonna make this a book yet.. but there's a possibility that i will be..

I think..

I hope y'all share this.. if this explodes.. then i might consider making a book of this.. hehe