The Ghost

The Reveal.

It’s weird, being on this side of the Realm. Choosing whether or not they can see me, even with their gifts. The Queen had Ryder teach me how to do that. Ryder, taught me how to do a lot of things as a ghost.

It was difficult for him to teach me. Actually, it was difficult for me to figure it out. Ryder got put into his brand new immortal body. He couldn’t touch me or hug me like he did before he went back into his body. It felt good having his arms wrap around me, after a long time without him.

But, it didn’t feel the same as when Ian’s arms were around me. I knew nothing would happen between Ryder and me anymore. I still love Ryder and I know he still loves me, but things will never change back to how they were before he died. But I had Ian now, and he had his own girl now, who was a total sweetheart. We were two love birds that were in two different nests now. We would never stop loving each other but my feelings for Ian were more than my feelings for Ryder. Ian is in my life now, Ryder is in my past. That is how it has to be and I don’t mind.

Looking at Ian holding Calla as she cries while looking out the window, just kills me. I have been watching them for the past 11 months and in a few weeks, it was going to be a year since my sacrifice. It has been almost a year since I had killed Ted while killing myself in the process. Not that I had committed suicide;  it was the only opening I had to kill him. He was behind me and I knew that the bullet would hit heart and in the position it was pointing, I knew it would kill me. I pulled the trigger, killing Ted and myself.. The only person who could see me no matter what, was Max. I hadn’t shown myself to anyone else, yet. I had to wait until Calla was in danger, which is now.

I stayed around both Ian and Calla as often as I could, these past few months. I had to make sure Ted, Calla’s ex-boyfriend who happened to be a Hunter, didn’t get near them and I did just that. Every time I saw him, I chased him away. They knew I was there, they could feel me. They also could see Ted and found it confusing when he would cuss and start having a conversation to himself when I threatened him.

I didn’t let him near her.

Two weeks ago, I saw Ted lunge at her, but I ended up shocking him away. When ghosts were mad, electricity zapped away from us. It was cool at first, but then I got shocked and I felt horrible. Now I hate it because it drains us  of all our energy when we calm down. It is like an adrenaline rush. Once it is gone, you crash.

Before he vanished, he told me something. He said he found a way to come back to kill her. He found a way to do it with his hands, her seeing it, feeling his flesh and he would enjoy it. That there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening. He clearly underestimates me.

That was why I chose to have today be the day I reveal myself. They always talk to me, but I never reply. I touch them, but they don’t feel it. Today is going to be different though. I have made the decision to reveal myself and tell them what all I know and am allowed to repeat.

“I miss her.” Calla muttered, looking away from the sunset into Ian’s eyes. She was on the verge of crying again.

“So do I, Calla, so do I.” He put his cheek on her head. That was the position they were usually in. Without Ian, I don’t think Calla would be able to handle my death. He was the one to bring them through the grief. Slowly, but surely.

“Why do you think she hasn’t shown up lately?” She asked.

“I am not sure. She has a reason. She could be tracking Ted down.” Ian sighed.

“Why won’t she reveal herself?” She yelled loudly. “It has almost been a year and I haven’t seen her once! I haven’t heard her voice once! I see her in my dreams, but it is always the scene that happened in front of us. Her killing herself is all I dream of, anymore. I want to see her differently. I want to see her!” She sobbed.