returning.

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I guessed it was morning Because i woke up with the sun shining on my face. It was nice. It reminded me of the tree house. I needed to get back there. It was my home. I got up and my head started hurting . It wasnt too bad so i could ignore it.  I put my jacket on and ran.

I ran back to my tree house.

I got changed. I put on a black , all american rejects t-shirt with light blue jeans that were torn at the knee's. I put on a different leather jacket with gold studs on the shoulders. I think you can tell that i have a think for leather and denim. I charged my phone.

Before i left home, i bought like 1000 rechargable phone batteries. I still had 155 left.

I had been at the tree house for long time . now long enough that Alex would know that i was missing. I tried not to but i couldnt help but think about him. Even when he hurt me, he was only trying to protect me. He deserved to be told to his face that i was leaving. Or that i was staying....
Just for a little while.
He is worth taking a chance for.

Im going back.

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I got back to the border of their pack land. 

He kept his promise. He said that if i chose to leave then he wouldnt come looking for me.

Every step i took, i couldn't help but feel worried.

What if he knows?

What if he's angry?

These thoughts never lasted more then a few minutes. Even though he was the reason i have been in hospital TWICE, i felt like i didnt have to worry about him.
I got to the court yard outside the alpha household and there were people going about there business.

" Go Inside "

This was strange. I was going crazy. A VOICE IN MY HEAD?!
But it wasnt just any voice. It was Alex...

I went inside. 

The house was huge.

I turned around and looked up to see a chandalier hanging.

"You came back" Alex echoed from the top of the stairs. I instantly turned around to see him.
"Why?" He asked walking down the stairs slowly.

I walked up the grand staircase. We met at the mid point on the stairs.

"You kept your promise. Why?"
I genuinly wanted to know.

"I asked you first."

How was i supposed to answer that? I guess i could tell him the truth. Its the only option i guess.

" i came back because you deserve better the being run out on."

A small smile graced his not perfect , (Completly perfect!) Lips.

"Your turn.
Why did you keep your promise?"

He leaned down so his lips were next to my ear, and he whispered ,

"Because you can trust me" 

He stood up straight and walked down the stairs. I stood still. My back was now to alex.  I was phased by his words.
I had been so against the idea of trusting people that i hadnt acctually realised that i dont know how to trust people.

I quickley turned around to see alex in the middle of the hall.

"Swan"
I said but loud enough that he could hear me.

"What?"

"My last name, its Swan."
I hadnt used my last name in years. It felt weird to say it our loud.

"Well , Thalia swan , i would like to get to know you. Now you can keep your sheilds up all you want, but that wont stop me from trying to get to know you." 

He was now infront if me again.
I couldnt help but smile. And then i remebered.

"You shouldnt want to know me. Im only going to be a mistake. I only hurt people. You should just reject me and then life will go back to the way it was."

"You really think i want life back to the way it was? You think that i would want to lose you?"

"You should" i said. I wasnt joking.

"Well i dont."

I just looked down.

"What are you scared of?" He asked. He lightly pulled my chin between his thumb and his finger so i was looking at him.

I knew the answer to his question. But there was something else that i hadnt even admitted to myself.  Yes, i was afraid of hurting people, but , i was also afraid of getting hurt. 

"Im scared of hurting you." I said. 

"Theres more" he said.

" no there isnt" i said. Quicker then i was meant to.

" yes there is. What is the matter?" 

He brought me into his chest. He was hugging me. For once in a long time i felt safe.

" what are you so afraid of?"

"Getting hurt" i whispered.

" i will never hurt you . I promise" he whispered back.

I looked him in the eyes. His eyes were so beautiful. They were a deep blue. They were an ocean and they were easy to get lost in. 

I brought my self up slightly so my lips could reach his cheek. I kissed him lightly.

A smile graced his lips.

A smile i wanted to see more of...