𝑆𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑦, 𝑚𝑒

𝑃𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑡𝑤𝑜

13/9

I almost messed up again today. I was walking down the hall to my abomination class, which I don't share with Luz on Thursdays, when I bumped into her. She was her usual bubbly self, being all cute about some new piece of magical information she'd learned in class, and I almost blurted out that I liked her. It wasn't like I planned it. She was just so caught up in it and so excited that it rubbed off on me a little. I caught myself, of course. Otherwise, I wouldn't be alive to write this because I would have instantly disintegrated from embarrassment. What I actually ended up saying was "I really like you...r backpack."

Yeah, not my greatest moment. Especially because she didn't even have her backpack on her at the time, so I had to explain that I saw her wearing it yesterday (trying to phrase the fact that I was watching her in a non-creepy way is very hard) and I thought it was nice. She's either very perceptive and didn't want to hurt my feelings by mentioning it, or super dense and actually bought that sorry excuse for an explanation. Either way, she told me all about all the different pins she had in her backpack back in the human realm, and I had to force myself to tell her that I had to get to class.

I will tell her eventually, but I guess I need to wait for the right time. After all, how hard can it be to ask out the girl you like?

19/9

I think I finally figured it out! It was right there all along, but I only just remembered over the weekend. This Friday is Grom night. Last year I didn't attend because I was late on some assignments and I didn't really wanna hang out with anyone there anyway. But this year I finally have a reason to go.

To be fair, asking her out is easier said than done. I thought very hard over the weekend on the best way to do it. I will definitely not be doing a gromposal; at least not an elaborate one like many of the upperclassmen do. So I chose the next best thing: a note.

Some might say it's cowardly to give her a note and just run away, but I can't think of any other way. I debated for over a day on how to phrase it, but eventually, I landed on something simple:

Luz,

Will you go to Grom with me?

Amity.

Now I just gotta give it to her. This could either go very well or very wrong. What if she doesn't like my handwriting? Maybe I should just rip it and wait for next year. But Luz will probably be gone by then, right? She did say she was only supposed to be away from home for about two and a half months.

But then, if I somehow give it to her and she says yes, what will we do if she has to go back to the human realm? She would probably choose her mother over me, surely. From what little she's spoken of her mom, they seem to have a good relationship. I doubt she'd choose the Demon Realm over something like that...

Maybe this is a bad idea...

20/9

Of all the things that I imagined going wrong, being chosen as Grom Queen was not one of them. Sure, I'm top student, but the job is usually given to students in their last year at Hexside. Why did it have to be on the one year I need the least stress possible?

Luz suggested I talk to Principal Bump, and since I had no other options I went for it. Of course, it went as well as you might expect. He said that unless I find a replacement – fat chance of that – then I'll have to face Grom and my worst fear. What's worse, I'm not so sure what my worst fear is. I mean, I have a pretty good idea, especially after Luz almost read my note today before I snatched it off her hands. If Grom turns into Luz, not only will I not be able to defeat it, everyone at school (Luz included) will know I like her and my whole plan will be ruined.