My time is here
And I'm making it clear
Oh, I love you my dear
But I'm going
I'm gone
I might come back
When the Benz all black
Ten racks on my lap
If I don't relapse
And I stay strong
(Haunt u - lil peep)
I don't like showing my feelings. Thats why I dont do it.
Obvious.
But I don't think that I can do this like forever.
I think I need someone who I can share my feelings with, but everytime I try to open up to someone, it feels like they don't care or it just feels wrong and uncomfortable.
I can't even open up to my therapist.
So I keep all my pain inside my head.
I just can't keep doing this. My thoughts get worse and worse every fucking day. I overthink everything.
For example, someone acts strange infront of me in the morning, I keep thinking about this for the whole day and cry over it at night.
But other topic:
I hurt people I love.
I don't want to.
But I do.
So I think it's better if I leave them. I start to ignore. Act like I don't care.
But I think about it all the time. I try to numb the pain with ignoring my problems and doing other things, so I don't have to think about it.
Surprise, that doesn't work.
