Childhood Series 1: Hate to Remember You (Completed)

Chapter 34

Iginiya niya ako paupo sa isang bench. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas pero kapwa kami nagpapakiramdaman.

He sighed. "Where do you want me to start?"

"Its up to you. Ikaw naman ang may alam ng sasabihin mo, so just talk it out." Blankong sabi ko. But deep inside I want to smirk. He has the guts now huh.

"Okay. You do know that you have amnesia right?" tanong niya kaya tumango ako. "Since naaalala mo naman yong kabataan natin, I will start from the day we bumped into each other. Galing akong trabaho non at dahil sa pagod ako ay di ko na namalayan na may makakabangga ako. I was so shocked seeing you in front of me in Paris.Who wouldn't, right? The last time I saw you was when I have to fly abroad for college."

Mataman lang akong nakatingin sa kanya habang siya ay titig na titig sa akin ng may nagsusumamong mga mata.

"Since then, we became close with each other dahil na rin sa wala kang kakilala abroad so ako palagi ang kasama mo. And then, I asked you one time if I can court you." Kiming sabi nito na tila hinihintay ang magiging reaksiyon ko.

"And I did? Hinayaan kitang manligaw sa akin?" I asked pretending not to know.

Natawa ito. "No actually, you avoided me for a couple of days then finally you show up in front of me telling that I can court you. We dated for a couple of months then on Christmas day, we became an official couple."

'Yeah, I know. That is why christmas day became extra special for me.' Gusto ko mang isatinig pero nanatili lang akong tahimik habang hinihintay ang sunod niyang sasabihin.

"All was well. Our relationship got stronger. Hindi mawawala yung misunderstanding pero naaayos din natin iyon. Handang-handa na akong bumuo ng pamilya kasama ka. I was so damn willing to spend my whole life with you, that is why I proposed to you and you said yes. Hindi mo alam kong gaano ako kasaya nong oras na yun." He said smilingly having flashback on that very moment.

I smiled sadly. Yeah, me too. It was the most memorable day of my life. Getting engage to the man I was so inlove with.

"We told our parents about our plan pero syempre, gaya ng sinabi mo, we want to surprise them kaya di ko sinabi na ikaw ang papakasalan ko. Okay na sana eh. Pero ilang araw bago tayo nagpasyang umuwi ng Pilipinas ay nagkaroon ng problema. I was so angry that I lashed it on you. Nasaktan kita ng sobra." He said almost teary eyed.

Parang bumabalik sa kin yung mga oras na sinabi niya sa akin na pinaglaruan lang niya ako. "You hurt me huh."

Tumulo ang luha nito pero pinanatili ko pa rin ang blankong expresyon kahit gusto ng kumawala ng luha ko dahil parang bumabalik na naman ang sakit ng ginawa niya sa akin. Those painful words that scarred my heart.

He hugged me tight. "Yeah, and I'm so, sorry for hurting you that time... I'm so sorry for everything that I have said.. hon.. hindi ko sinasadya yon. I didn't mean it... walang katotohanan lahat yon.. I love you so much, please... believe me. I was just so caught up about the situation I'm involved with.. naging duwag ako.. I'm so sorry, hon.. please.. forgive me.. forgive.. " humahagolgol na sabi nito. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagsisisi sa mga salita niya. I know he regretted what he did but he still hurt me. Hindi maibabalik ng sorry lahat ng sakit na naramdaman ko ng dahil sa kanya.

"Forgive me hon. Forgive me for coming back into your life again. I know ang kapal ng mukha ko para magpakita pa ulit sayo matapos kitang saktan but I just love you so much."

He withdraw from his embrace then wipe his tears. "Walang araw na hindi kita binabantayan. Mula ng malaman kong naaksidente ka, I was so devastated na pati sarili ko napabayaan ko na. I blamed myself for what happened to you at napakaduwag ko dahil hindi ko magawang humarap kanila tita."