Boys Don't Cry

It's been seventeen years and he just won't stop the abuse. I'm tired of it. I wish I could escape but...
I can't...
My name is Axel. And this is the story of my life...

"STOP CRYING! YOU'RE A WORTHLESS MISTAKE! BOYS DON'T CRY!" Is what my dad (Derek) keeps yelling at me. Sense all the abuse started, that's when I stop showing emotions. I became emotionless. Started fighting. But I don't ever start the fights...
I finish them...
My dad tells me all the time that if I dare to start crying, he'll beat me like he used to do. Except he don't know the fact that I don't cry anymore. I'm emotionless. All my emotions are gone...

"But I'm used to the pain. Though I hope it'd go away. I used to cry. Hoping I don't die without getting passed all the lies. I feel weak inside. All the abuse is taking away my time. Please, I hope this doesn't make me cry. I just don't wanna get too abuse to die."

Three years later...

I am now twenty years old and I'm still emotionless. I'm starting to develop one feeling...
Depression...
I'm not supposed to cry. I can't cry. Cause if I do, I'm going to die. Well, might as well kill myself before my dad kills me...
One day I was at work. For my break, I went to the rooftop. I was planning on jumping off the roof. Just to end everything. To get rid of the pain.

"I'm getting older. Though I'm still having trouble getting bolder. I'm an adult. Getting too stressed leaving me to have a stroke. I wish I could forget. But it's stuck in my head. Everything don't seem too legit."

Even though I wanted to fix everything, I think it's best for me to just leave. My life feels like shit. My life is a living hell. Because of my father, I just don't feel like I'm even supposed to be alive. What if I was just a mistake. I was so close to jumping off the roof when suddenly one of my partners from work came and saw me about to jump off. My partner is really sweet. Her name is Ally. She has always been there for me. We're kinda like best friends. She makes me feel warm inside. "AXEL! GET DOWN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Ally yelled. "I'm doing everyone a favor." I said while looking down. "What do you mean by that?" Ally asked. "Every sense my dad started abusing me, I became emotionless. The only feeling I have right now is depression. Though I'm trying so hard not to cry. Boys/men don't cry." I said getting closer to the edge. "STOP! Who told you that lie?" She asked. "My dad. He told me so many times boys/men don't cry." I said still looking down at the ground. "Well, he's wrong. Boys and men do cry. They don't care what their sex is. Everyone tends to cry. If you need to cry then let it out. There's nothing stopping you but yourself. You're forcing yourself not to cry because of what another person told you. Don't be afraid to show emotion." Ally said with tears coming out of her eyes. I thought long and hard about what Ally told me. I didn't care anymore. I got off the edge and fell to my knees crying. Ally had a point. Just because I let someone tell me something just to threaten me, doesn't mean I have to listen to them. I am my own person. And I have a right to show my emotions. Though, it's going to be hard getting them back. Ally then ran up to me to comfort me by giving me a hug. "Let it all out. I can tell you've been holding it in for a long time." Ally said. After that moment, I finally felt like I was somebody important. But I also felt another emotion...

Love...

Ally makes me feel loved. I knew ally sense forever. We are childhood best friends. Though, I would like to be more than friends. But I'm pretty sure she doesn't feel the same way. She may just want to stay friends. Ally then came up with an idea. "How about we go to your dad's house. Ask him why he to these things to you." "I don't know. If I go, he may know I was crying and try to beat me." I said. Ally was very supportive and she helped me talk to my dad.

Couple minutes later (at axel's dad house)...

"What are you doing here you mistake? My dad asked. Once he saw Ally, he became a whole new person. " What is she doing here?" He my dad asked. "You can do it. Remember, I'm right by your side." Ally whispered. I took a deep breath and I mumbled. My dad couldn't hear me. "Repeat." My dad said. "WHY DO YOU DO IT! WHY DO YOU ABUSE ME!" I yelled. "What do you mean?" My dad asked. "All these years of abuse. I am a grown adult now and I still get beaten by MY OWN FATHER! I'm sick of it! Boys/Men do cry dad. And there's nothing wrong with it. That shows that us boys/men do care." I said with a tear rolling down my face. "... I do it because of your mother. She's the one who told me that it's a disgrace to see a man cry. I became emotionless. If you're always wondering why I cover up my eyes, it's so no one can see that I'm emotionless. And son, I'm so very sorry for what I did. I ruined your whole childhood. And I deeply apologize." My dad said with his voice breaking. I know my dad hurt me a lot, but I think it's time to forget and forgive. "I accept your apology." I said with a smile on my face. After that, three years has passed by and I finally got the courage to ask Ally if she would be my girlfriend. And surprisingly, she said yes. A few more years passed by and me and Ally got married. And my dad, well let's just say, he got really sick and died. Other than that, life started to get better and better. Me and Ally decided to have kids of our own. We came up having a beautiful baby girl named Jessica. And this was the story of my life.