𝐵𝓁𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒 - 𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙖𝙪

𝒜𝓂 𝐼 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹𝓎 𝑜𝓇 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝐼 𝓁𝑒𝓉 𝑔𝑜?

I was taking a walk in the park with Ej. We were holding hands. We were laughing and sharing ridiculous stories. All of a sudden it hits me. We are acting like a couple. I don't want this to get too serious and then I fall too deep and get hurt. I don't want to be hurt. I remember when my dad left my mom and she cried for days and our house was so gloomy and sad. She was so upset and heartbroken. It's been a few years and she's still not completely over it. I don't want that to happen to me.

"Ej I don't care about the relationship being problematic and drama free. God, nothing can be drama free so honestly it's not because of that I just..."

He looks at me.
"What's the matter Gina?"

"I just... I don't know. I love you, I just can't date you and I'm sorry."

"I don't mean to sound pushy but if you love me and there is no reason you can't date me, then why won't you?"

I let go of his hand and he looked so upset.

"I don't date Ej, I'm sorry."

"I'm so confused, if you love me, what are you afraid of?"

"Im sorry Ej, I just don't dat–"

"There must be another reason."
"Ej I told you I just can't."

"Gina, honestly I don't understand. Why can't you date m–"

"I'm afraid, okay?!" I sigh

"Gina.. afraid of what..?" his voice softens.

"My mom.. well.. My dad left without saying goodbye. She has been heartbroken ever since and I'm afraid I'll end up like her and I don't want to be heartbroken forever. I love you Ej, and I can't do this because if you leave, I won't be able to function." I say.

He pulls me into a hug.

"I will never leave you Gina, never. I love you Gina Porter and I promise to never break your heart."

I look into his eyes and my eyes flick down to his lips back at his eyes again. We are inches away from each other. I lean in and close my eyes. I slowly press my lips against his. I got butterflies in my stomach as his warm lips pressed against mine. I love Ej Caswell, but am I ready to date him?

"Gina?"
"Hm?"
"Are you ready to date? I understand if you need more time to think it over. Or if you don't want to at all and just stay friends I understand"
"I.... I... I think that... I..."
To be continued... :)
*AUTHORS NOTE* Sorry for the short chapter. It's just when I got to this part I wanted to make you guys excited to see what happens next. What do you think? Do you think Gina is ready? Do you think Gina needs more time? Or do you think that Gina just wants to stay friends forever? Read the next chapter to find out!