Choose- M.P.

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Another girl entered his life, he left me all alone to go with someone else. I was happy for him but he wasn't happy for me, anything he achieved, i would show a little bit of gratitude to him but what does he do, anything i achieved, he doesn't show me anything, he ignores me. When i confronted him about it, the words he said made my heart break a bit

"i hate you"

'What did I do? Why does he hate me?'

Those questions stuck in my head, not wanting to disappear. I want to forget about him, he said he hates me so why am I so attached to him? Is it because he was the first person to show me love? Is it because he stayed with me since we were kids? Or is it because...I loved him?

whatever right?

Hate
Hate
Hate

That's all he ever felt for me while all I felt was love for him

love...
so why does he hate me?

My mom stayed today, she said she had something urgent to do but I don't feel like asking her what does she need to do, she won't tell me anyways

Ever since my father left us, she's been all over the place, I want to help but she said the only way I can help is finish high school

I mainly stay though, ever since the whole thing that happened between him and I, I stopped going, two months ago was the last time I went to school

I was what they say 'a bright student' but 'the nerd' in some people's eyes
I was bullied for that but I didn't care because I had someone by my side, but now he's gone

I had another friend as well, her name was Duu, she was the new girl, she went up to me and wanted to be friends, I didn't mind but I regret ever interacting with her

I wish they never met

Great now i'm crying again

Haha, getting so emotional from those memories, what a way to start off my morning

I don't like staying home, it makes me feel even more sad so I like to go to my hiding spot

It's like a hidden area in our local park, I never really went there until I started to stay at home so I go there almost everyday

But for some reason, I have a gut feeling, a bad one
Telling me not to go today, I don't know why but I feel like I'll regret going there today

I always trust my gut feeling so I think it's best to stay home instead of going there

Duu

This area is disgusting, how can she even chill in a spot like this

I mean whatever though, hopefully she comes down here and see that me and him are here

She hates it
You can tell right after we announced that we were together, she wanted to be happy but something happened

I'm glad she can finally leave him alone
He loves me and he hates her, that's all I want but it's funny to see a reaction out of her

I want her to see us, I want to see her face after she remembers how much he loves me

What? Does she think after not coming to school that he'll worry for her and chase after her

So stupid, he could care less, I'm the only one in his mind, while she is just abandoned

I tried to be friends with her but she was just so... bland and boring, I regret trying to be her friend, she was so clingy, she was like a puppy
So I tried to make her hate me by getting with her best friend, the guy who swore he'll stay by her

He was easy but I'm not planning on letting him go soon, I love him and he loves me

It's best if we pretend like she never existed

She never arrived, she always comes here so why isn't she here

"This is random now that I think about it" He told me
"I know but I just wanted to be somewhere quiet with you instead of my place or your place" I said, putting my hands on his face
He raises an eyebrow
"Are you lying to me"
"No, why would I lie" I straddle his lap
Leaving little kisses on his neck

Sex in a abandoned area? maybe

You

"Nana!" My mom calls me from downstairs
I got up from my bed and ran downstairs
"Can you go to the convenience store and buy some advil for me please"
I nod my head
"How many"
"Just bring three bottles"
Again, I nod my head and grabbed my sweater

I know I said I usually stay home but I go to the convenience store like once a week for pills or water, my mom usually needs it to concentrate on her work
I feel bad that she has to do all this for me and no matter how many times I say I'll get a job to help out with the rent, she just tells me to focus on getting my diploma

I am planning on going back to school but give me a week at least

I walk in the store and looked for the Advil, we live pretty close to one so it's no trouble

For some reason, I don't see any advil, weird they usually have a lot here

"Hey Ren" I yelled out
He turns around and smiles at me

Ren is a employee here, he started working here for almost 3 months, he is one year older than me but he goes to another school

"Hey nana, how are you"
"I'm good but do you know where the advil is"
"Oh um, they moved it to the front because they are gonna put new stuff right here"
"Really? what are they going to put right here"
"Some new snacks I think"
clearing out the pill stuff for snacks?
"Oh, thank you"
I waved good bye and tried to walk to the front but he stopped me

"I have news"
I raise my eyebrows, curious about what news he has

"I'm going to transfer to your school"
My eyes widened

"Really"
He nods his head yes and I hugged him
I'm so excited that he'll be at my school, I can finally have a friend there

"Aw this is so cute"