The Allure Of darkness

chapter 21

☆Ravenna's POV:☆

it's been a month, an entire fucking month since i last heard from klaus, i was dead worried and azalea kept asking for him, she kept spelling daddy all the time and i, and i dont know what to do.

i've been calling vincent and alaric, no response, i've been calling everyone on the the hollow's name list that i took before we got back home after izzie's birthday, but nothing, no one responded.
my anxiety is back, my depression is back, every fucking thing that has fucked up my mind before is back, when klaus was around i was stable, but now, now i'm more messed up than ever, i would always contain my anger and fear and sadness around azalea.
i can't show her any weaknesses.
i was always filled with hope, he will come back, he will be okay but now now I'm only having negative thoughts.

one year later and still, no news, nothing, i don't even know if mikael and esther and fin are dead or not, i have no fucking clue on what has  happened and i'm losing it, i became more angry, filled with rage, i turned all the sadness and the messed up emotions into anger.

i was in the supermarket getting groceries and some stuff with izzie when i felt a touch on my shoulder, niklaus?
i thought, when i turned around i saw an old dude with a smirk on his face, he was biting his bottom lip,
"hello gorgeous, can i have your number? i have more money that your husband, and this child will only know the expensive life, dump him and come with me" he winked after he said that.
all i needed was a distraction, and all my anger would be spilled.
"do you want to feel the best euphoric feeling with me? im better in bed than the father of this child" he smirked.
"leave us alone or the only thing you'll feel is a broken jaw" i threatened.
"feisty, i like my woman spicy" he ignored my threat and said.
two seconds later and all i could feel was blood on my fist, i broke his jaw with my hand and i'll gladly do it again.
"slut!" he yelled while leaving.
"mommy who is this guy" azalea said afraid, as she hid behind me, she had her hands wrapped around my leg.
"it's okay sweatheart, he's just a guy that thought he could buy a woman, but baby you are so precious and valuable, you can't be bought." i assured her, i don't know when nik is going back, so i'm going to give her the necklace and tell her everything katherine wants her to know tonight.

we got back home, we've been living in my old house in greendale.
Damon, one of nik's best friends told me that the greendale house would be the safest place for us.
after 5 months of nik's disappearance  damon and stefan salvatore showed up to the mansion, they've been supporting me and azalea through this rough time, they also provide me with informations and news about what happened a year ago, apparently mikael was ready to attack, but nik found out about that and he attacked first, no one knows what happened after. no one knows if mikael and his team are alive or not, but one thing is clear, it's not over yet, nothing's over.

"mommy where are you!!!" azalea yelled excitedly running down the stairs,
"in the kitchen baby" i yelled back.
she entered the kitchen and found out i was cutting some brownies that i baked a moment ago, it was christmas and we were decorating the house early in the morning, then we went to the supermarket to get some stuff to make a brownies and ginger cookies.
"it's bafing timeee!!!" she said excitedly while climbing on the dark marble table in the kitchen. she's still learning how to talk and her words are the purest things my ears have heard.
"it's baking baby" i corrected her.
........
"wait no yo-" i tried to tell azalea not to  turn the blender on yet but she didn't listen. she turned it on, the blender's cap wasn't on so you can only imagine the mess that it caused.
"azalea what did i tell you about not listening"
"mommy look a tasty chaos" she giggled looking at the mess she made.
"okay go sit there and eat, i'll clean everything, but don't touch anything am i clear?" i said pointing at the couch in the living room. she took her plate and sat there and watched my little pony on the tv on netflix while i'm cleaning. she decorated the brownies with some icing and whipped cream, we wanted to blend some oreos and whipped cream but today wanted to be a messy day.
after i was done i sat behind her, and i hugged her from behind, then we both went upstairs and i helped her shower and change into her christmas pjs, we then went back upstairs and i made her hot chocolate with whipped cream and marshmallow on top. i had put a little matress and blankets and pillows on the floor in front of the fireplace, we sat there and chilled while watching home alone for the 45th time these few days. she loves this movie so much.
then i took the necklace from the drawer near the bookshelves and sat back next to her.
"mommy what is this?" she asked pointing at the necklace.
"baby this is mommy katherine's necklace" i said while putting it around her little neck. i told her about katherine, she always stares at the painting that i had painted for her and kath and nik a year ago, she thinks that katherine is her guardian angel and i always tell her that she's always watching over her.
"katherine wanted you to have this, she loves you so so so much and she's so proud of the young lady you've become. always wear it and never take it off"
she hugged me tightly and she said "i love her too"
then i remembered something else, the vow, always and forever, nick wanted her to have his necklace, the original m necklace, and for her to be a part of the vow. so i said "family sticks together always and forever baby, and that we are bound forever to those with whom we share blood. And while we may not choose our family, that bond is our greatest strength"
"i will always put family first" she said with her pinky up, "pinky swear" she said before we interlocked our pinkies together.

she later asked "mommy why is daddy not home? does he not love me anymore?"
"o my god izzie how could you think like that, of course he loves you the most in the world, he isn't home because he have some work to do and he's far from us, he will come home when he's done working sweatheart"
i didn't want her to hate him for never being here, i want her to know that he's the best dad anyone could ever ask for. she reminds me of him a lot, my heart aches to see him, to hug him, to hear his voice again. nik where are you.
i haven't heard a thing from his siblings either, it's like the mikaelsons disappeared without a trace, yet i am raising the youngest mikaelson in my home.
and about home, every inch of this house reminds me of the people that i loved that have died, every inch of this house is filled with memories of them, azalea always asks me about the people in the pictures on the wall, on the tables, everywhere, i tell her they're my family.
staying in this house have made everything harder.

after a while of sitting and relaxing, the doorbell's sound woke the entire house up, tho me and azalea are the only ones here.
i rushed and took my gun out, and i put it behind my back, i told azalea to stay wherever she is and not move to the door.
i opened the door and there was a male and a female at the door, the blond one reminded me of rebekah.
"good evening" the guy said
"is this ravenna emberwood?" the blonde asked.
"yes i am, how can i help you" i asked.
"i am freya, niklaus's older sister" she said, he never mentioned anything about a second sister. i looked at her confused when the guy spoke.
"yes he has another, rebekah is my girlfriend" the guy said.
"i'm marcel btw" he said.
"we're his family" freya said.
"well i know his parents wants him dead, also his brother, so you have to be a bit more specific on that family part, do you want him dead or you want him safe? and i have no idea where nik is right now, so how do i believe you" i said, my paranoia was starting to feel like nik's, i'm not gonna lie i want to believe them, i can't do this on my own and i need support from his family, my mentality is dead. and not money, i have all the money i need, i mean my father's and mother's inheritance is all mine.
"look" marcel showed me a tattoo on his neck, it was an m and fenrir's sigil. niflheim's symbols, nik's symbols.
"come in" i said, i put the gun down on the table and i locked the door after they entered and i led them to the living room.
"is this who i think she is?" freya said looking at a very shy azalea, azalea was hiding under a blanket clearly terrified.
"it's okay baby come here" i held my hands out to her and she quickly hugged me, she was in my arms hiding her face in my neck.
"this is azalea, klaus's daughter" i said,
"hello" izzie said.
"you're so strong, raven, i see why nik loves you" marcel said.
"where is he, i haven't heard of him for a year and 2 months and 72 hours." i said.
marcel cleared his throat and said "can i have a glass of water please"
"sure follow me" i put azalea on the ground, but she didn't want to let go, "it's alright baby stay here with your aunt." i said.
marcel and i headed to the kitchen, i poured him a glass of water.
"so tell me, why did he never mention having a second sister?" i asked.
"he didn't know about her, he always thought he only had rebekah" he replied.
"where is he, is he okay, tell me everything you know, i'm freaking out"
"it's alright relax, he's gon' be just fine, he's still alive"
"just alive?!?! where is hee?!"