"Once's stayed, cant really be there forever But once's that left, can't really be forgotten"
You appeared in my life so randomly yet so easy to remembered. I feel like i'll never meet anyone like you, as annoying as you, pretty as you, and as comforting as you. You were once everthing to me, there was not a day without thinking of you, i'd call you just to hear your voice, your voice makes me calm, it makes me feel like im wanted, and you were a cure for every scar i had. You can make make my day just by doing the silliest things, thinking about it just makes me laugh. You were complicated but i'd still be with you(even though you wont). I confessed my feelings dozens of time, but your reply wasn't really satisfying, you told me to stop liking you in that kind of way. Honestly that was the most repulsive thing you've ever did to me, but i'd still be like that.
But after that day i didn't know what to do, you left without even telling me whatsup. every dm's i sent were just read never replied, until someone did and it ended with my insta blocked. I went out that night, every steps i take, every ciggarettes i smoke couldn't even manage to make me stop thinking of you. you're a scar. A few weeks has past since you left my life, i still don't know why you didn't tell me the reason you left me, but i tried to not think about it anymore. Right now, im just trying to let my feelings die for you, even though its hard.
But in the end Just because she doesn't love you the same way, doesn't mean she don't love you. i thought about that with all the positivity i have, its sad but still i dont wanna get my hopes up again. A memory with you never dies, it'll always be reminisced forever, even thought i dont love you. Hope that you find all the happiness you seek, hope your mom doesn't cut your hair again lol. My life will never be the same without you, i thought about never hearing that voice of yours. I still hope that i have chance with you, mybe it'll get very serious, finally take it to the next level Like it still bugs me sometimes, im curious what will happen if i actually get a chance with you. Loving you was one of the best experiance in my life, even though its one sided, i dont mind it. I think i'll just take a break with all this love shit, i think i need to focus on myself more rightnow And i really hope you're reading this, cause it does means a lot to me, im open for you anytime.
