Growing Up Gay

Being on the football team Ch. 4

       As a freshman my mom forced me to join the football summer camp. Noa was my only friend there at first. One day I was making jokes about me being gay and one of them heard and asked if i was gay. I simply answered with why are you gay? That's how I came out to the whole team.
       After that day I was fully ostracised from the team. I managed to make friends with the other weird kids. Connor, Harry, and me bonded over needy stuff like pokemon and vines. Although I became frenemies with a guy named Thomas. They became my reason why I even went to camp, the reason I started having fun.
       There were times when it got awkward like when one of the guys thought it was a choice to be gay. I simply asked him if he thought I chose to be called slurs. Another day I got asked how I reproduced with one player. I just told him thats none of his business because some things are kept private.
       Everything I did was monitored by them like when the quarterback asked me why I was wearing earrings. They were from an anime called demon slayer, how uncultured of him. Later he told me he wasn't homophobic and shook my hand. I just don't get why they have to say that. I want to be treated like a normal human not a damn exotic animal at the zoo.
       I think these football guys forget one crucial thing about me. I am friends with all of their girlfriends, so I know what they say behind my back. They have said things from "he only joined to see guys naked" to just the f-slur. These dumbasses have thought me and my pansexual friend were dating. We look more like siblings than partners. One time as we went to starbucks they thought were gonna go multiply in the bathroom.
       I don't know what makes them think it's okay to call me the f-slur in the middle of the hallway but everyday I get closer and closer to beating the shit out of one of them. I try my best to keep me and my friends from doing anything because I don't wanna put our futures at risk.