Hello, im listening to breathe me by Sia while im writing this.im keeping my name as H' as this things are personal , they happen in my everyday life, i never told anyone about this things even those who are very close to me, you probably are if your reading this ,one of the person who's about to enter about my tragic life. and NO, this is not any story like here in wattpad this is real, this is my Diary.
Ive been struggling with Social Anxiety Disorder for the last 5 years, and right now just year 2012 i found out by myself that i have Social Anxiety Disorder.i thought this was all shyness but no,this is social anxiety disorder .
ive kept myself long enough for 3 years because of S.A.D and i just figured this out :,(
if i had known earlier people who'd have understand,people who'd have help,they would have understand.except they dont know till now why i can never go to a rare place with lots of people why i feel suffocated everytime im in a room full of new people in my eyes.
its so hard to trust people, everytime i meet someone ,i dont feel comfortable around them.i dont feel comfortable around strangers except to the people im close with.
i have always been jealous,jealous of people who can have friends in just a minute,who can interact with strangers easily.
me? , i can never do that. i'd die if i do that, thats why im writing here.
i'd rather be in the corner ,in the corner where no one will see me. judge me.talk to me or hurt me.
to be continued. . .
-H.♥
January 30,2013
