Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~28~ Guitar guy

Troye's pov

Broken. Hurt. Betrayal.
What did I do to deserve this? My trust is broken and so is my heart. Out of all the people he broke me, the one you expect the least. Connor. The one I truly loved, still love. I can't just forget about him, throw him out of my life like he never even existed. I wish I could but everything reminds me of him. Not only internet related things, no, the people around me on the street.

A hint of blue in the corner of my eye and I see the shirt Connor was wearing when I saw him minutes ago. The sound of a man's laughter makes me turn, it sounds familiar, Connor's laugh. He's laughing at me, he thinks I'm stupid that I ever believed he loved me. But he isn't there. There's only a man with a guitar, around 50 years old I guess, his hair turning grey. He looks at me intensely, searching my eyes, as if trying to read them. They're occupied with salty tears that I gave up on swiping away. It's wasted time, they come back in a second.

"Hey you with the grey beanie, what's wrong?" The man with the guitar called out to me.
"I don't wanna talk about it." I lied, I know that talking about it is good but I don't even know this guy.
"I know you want to talk about it, what is it? A girl?"
"A boy" I corrected.
"Hmm I see, what has he done?" He's just going to accept it? No weird look because I'm gay?
"How do you even know that he has done something?" I asked him.
"I see it in your eyes and the way you act. It's kinda obvious that he hurt you a lot."
"Well he cheated on me with one of my best friends."
"How do you know?"
"He lives in LA and said nothing about coming here. I saw a picture of him and a girl on twitter, she even filmed a minute of their meeting where he said he had a meet-up with someone. She even said he went on a date."
"Why did that girl do that?"
"We are youtubers so she was probably a fan who watches his videos."
"Mmh so maybe what she says isn't true. Have you thought about that?"
"No when I saw him he looked caught. It was so obvious in his eyes, the way his mouth formed a straight line. He didn't know what to do. I'm sure even though I don't want to believe it."
"Well boy, I can't give you much of advice but I can tell you that music is the best way to tell your feelings."
"I know."

He started playing a song I didn't know, I guess it's his own song with his own lyrics. It was only a small part of a full song but it sounded beautiful.

"Love is a reminder of what I have. You, you're the only thing I need, only you can make me feel the galaxies in my heart. The stars they shine upon the skies. The bright lights reflected in your eyes. Love is what I feel for you, even though I've never loved before. I guess this is what love's about cause you can make mee feel things I've never felt before. So do you love me? Do you like me in the way I like you? You're the only one for me, the one I don't wanna hide any longer. I wanna scream your name, touch you where I've never touched before. I don't want our love to be hidden anymore. Cause love is what I feel for you, even though I've never loved before."

The song came to an end, tears streaming out of my eyes even harder than before. I don't even know how it's possible to cry so much. This song, the words, everything about it was just so painful. Connor, it reminds me of connor so much.
"It's not my song." The man said." I heard a boy singing it on his way down the road. I only remembered this part though. He was obviously not a singer but the emotions were clear in the way he sang it. I hope you find a guy like that one day. Someone who makes you feel the way music does."
"Thank you for everything." I said to him, not really knowing what to say. I really was at a loss of words. He didn't brighten up my day, not at all, but this guy is truly amazing. His words hit me one by one.

On my way home I kept thinking about what the man had said. Someone who makes you feel the way music does. But what if that person is Connor? He was my inspiration for my newest song, he makes me feel the way music does. I can't let him go like this but neither can I go back to him. He broke me, hurt me, tore me in pieces. I can never forgive him that. I don't want to see him again. If I let him back into my life, he will only hurt me even more, I can't let that happen to myself. He's not worth the pain but pain is all I feel right now. I want answers. I want to know why, why didn't he love me? Why my best friend? I will never get them cause I won't let him back in my life.

I finally saw my house at the end of the street. I walked a little bit faster, still slow though. I can't bring myself to walk fast. My legs feel so heavy , my feet trembling.
I opened the front door and walked trough the living room in a straight line, ignoring everyone around me. I felt their eyes staring at me. Words flying across the room without understanding them. Being alone in my room is the only thing I want to do right now so that's what I did. I walked up the stairs to my bedroom, falling on my bed immediately. More tears escaping my eyes, sobbing sounds coming from my mouth. I want to sleep and never have to wake up again. I'm tired but every time I let my eyes fall shut, I see images of Connor. Our happy times, the smiles we shared, the times we made each other blush. Was all of it fake? Or did his love for me just stopped?

In an attempt to shake the memories and thoughts away, I grabbed my phone. It didn't really help though. 23 messages and 9 missed calls from Connor. What does he want to say? I don't think there's much left to say. Only things that can brake me harder. I ignored the messages and threw my phone on my bedside table.

There was a knock at my door. Can't they just leave me alone for a day?
"Come in" I sighed. The door opened a second later, revealing a worried Sage.
"There's someone on the phone for you."
"Who is it?" Whoever it is I'm not in the mood to talk.
"It's Connor."
"Tell him I'm busy." Why even is he trying so hard to speak to me.
"Troye, what's wrong? Don't dare to say there's nothing wrong because it's hella obvious. Plus you would never reject a call from Connor."
"He cheated on me." I whispered.
"He did what?!" Sage shouted in disbelieve.
"And out of all persons with Haden. I've lost two of the people I was closest with."

Sage took me in her arms, one of her comforting embraces.
"I don't think he cheated on you. He loves you Troye. He would never do that. It's probably just a misunderstanding."
"How can you be so sure? You didn't saw the look in his eyes when I caught him in that coffee shop."
"Ssh Troye. Maybe you just need to let him explain himself. It looks like he really wants to. He tries so damn hard to call you."
"I don't know Sage. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want all of this."
"And I don't want to see you hurt. You're my little brother. I want to see you happy like this past month. I just want the best for you but right now I think that is talking to Connor."
"I will see okay? I'm not ready for it right now."
"Okay Troye." With that she left my room, leaving me alone again.

What if she's right and this is just a misunderstanding? But how could she know? No, I can't give myself hope. He cheated on me and nothing is going to change that.

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A/n

Hello lovely people!
Here's another update :)
Nope they're not back together yet. Ornotyet? Maybe never? Moehahaha. Okay sorry that was very mean of me.

All of yourcommentsonlastchapter were so nice. It means so much to me that my story can make you feel like crying. Okay again this sounds wrong. I don't want to make you guys cry butyeahitjusthappens. Astorycan'tbeallhappy. Pff I shouldstoptalking.
BYE xxx