Her Second Chance

Chance 9:

Play the Song.

( Dying Inside to hold you )

Holding On

Prince's POV

( After the accident )

She--what?

" Yung sinabi ko.."

" Joke lang yun. "

" Crush pa rin kita.."

She said in a small voice, but I heard what she said. It take seconds when I finally snapped out of it. Then suddenly my whole face felt hot, even my ears felt hot. Like- wtf. she saying?! She's so embarassing I can't help but to feel--to feel. Huh? fuck, why my heart is beating so fast?

I can't sit still so I hurriedly went outside of my room to chase after her. But I was so shocked. I felt the sudden heat on my face left me. It was the most frightening thing that ever happened to me. In 17 years that I exist in this word, never I have felt like that. Pakiramdam ko sinabuyan ako ng napakalamig na tubig. Pakiramdam ko hihimatayin ako. I was sweating too much I feel my hands getting cold. There...I saw her. Lying motionless on the floor. Blood were everywhere. The cheerful voice echoed in my mind. I was so scared. Is she, dead? Then--she wont smile anymore? She wont call my name? Get angry when I tease her? was it my fault? I was so shaken up that I can't breath.

I have to call someone. But I can't move.

If I don't hurry, she'll die. I was gasping for air. I can't breath.

What should I do? " So---some..o-one..h-hel--p. help. " I said between sobs and while I struggle to breath.

I'm so useless. I can't save her.

Eveything was blurry. Then when I nearly lost consciousness, I saw her Mom shouting. She called for help and saw me too.

I lost consciousness.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I'll promise. I'll always be there for you when you need help so--

please don't die.

After that accident...I felt guilty whenever I see her. Was it because she's hurt? because I can't help her that time? Because I'm a coward who fainted after seeing blood? I don't know. But then, I find myself getting anxious when she's not around. So I made her stay beside me all the time, I know I'm selfish and overbearing, but the strange thing is--she stayed. Dahil ba hanggang ngayon...may gusto pa rin siya saakin?

Impossible.

After all this years? That's impossible.

After brushing her feelings on the side of my heart, I always pretend I did't know. Pretending so I can't get hurt. Because I'm so scared na mawala ang tanging taong nagturing saakin bilang ako. I ws scared that she'll change. That our relationship will change.

even though I really wanted to be good to you. Why I just...cant?

even though I want to be nice to you, I cant do it...why?

Why?

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( Present  )

" Princ--Prince... "

I heard her calling. Doon ako nagmulat ng mata. I vaguely saw her face looking at me. Then a loud voice shouted, a different voice.

" PRINCEE!!! " Ugh, so loud.