The Truth of Trust & Loyalty Reader x Narcissa/Tom Riddle

Deed of True Regret

TW gore filled murder.

DISCLAIMER: I do not know how horcruxes are actually made so I'm just going to say how I think one would be made, if you disagree that's okay this is just my interpretation.

"Let's begin. I expect that'll you'll turn your engagement ring into a horcrux. It would make the most sense."
"Please tell me he won't have to suffer?"
"He will, this won't be easy for you. That's the point."

He handed me a small dagger. He conjured two bowls.
"You won't need your wand till the last segment. I'll guide you through every step. Sirius you'll get to watch and know this could've been you."

I swallowed my tears. I couldn't give him further satisfaction.

"The ritual shouldn't take to long if done correctly your lucky I have experience."
"Your experience being killing my mother and father?"
"Yes. Now place the wooden bowls under his wrists. Use the dagger to cut three lines into each wrist."
"I'm sorry brother.."

I did as I was told, I tried to make clean quick cuts so Rinok wouldn't suffer. I knew I would never recover from this, ripping my soul apart and killing my dear brother. Sirius looked at me, studying my features. Sirius saw my pain and felt it as his own. Tom either didn't see my pain or ignored it. I would not let him know my pain. I would not cry I would not scream. I would shoulder my burden. And I would know it was all my fault.

"Good job. Now cut one line on each of your wrists. Let it drain into the same bowls."

I made the cuts silently making them deeper than Rinoks. I would let this scar as a reminder of the act I committed. I knew I would be reminded of it everyday but I needed to have a physical reminder.

"Now take the bowls out from under both of your wrists. Dip the ring into the blood. Now set the ring on the ground. Now draw a large circle around the ring with the blood. Next an upside down triangle at the top of the circle. Next an oval at the bottom of the circle. Lastly a line through the middle of the circle."

Rinok looked so pale. His blood dripped all over the ground. Mine dripped down my hands. Shock had not let me consider my actions. I pushed through not quite aware of the horror of my actions.

"Now draw the same symbols on your palms and chest above your heart."

The blood dried to my skin much quicker than I thought it would. It stuck to me like glue to parchment. Just as guilt clung to my bones.

"Now your going to have to torture him."

He handed me my wand.

"crucio"

I practically whispered. I didn't have it in me. I knew what this felt like I couldn't do this to Rinok.

"Say it like you mean it. Or you can torture him by hand."
"CRUCIO"

I yelled it wishing it were Tom the spell was directed at instead of Rinok. The spell worked. Rinok screamed, a scream that I never thought I would hear, but I felt it deep in my bones.

"Rinok is almost dead, so this next part will have to be much quicker. Your going to need to cut out his heart. Plunge the dagger in, cut around and grab the heart. It should still be beating."

I did as I was told. Rinoks screams echoed through my head. I couldn't look at Sirius. I felt sick. I can't do this. I have to. I can't let him die for nothing. I can't do this. I have to. But how can I.

I pulled his still beating heart from his chest. He gasped for air, he suffered.

"Good, now kill him. You have to mean it"
"Avada Kadavra!"

"Put the ring in the heart and place the heart in the circle."

"Now sit at the base of the circle. Point the tip of your wand at the bottom of the heart. Chant this three times- they die in fire, so that I may thrive, their pain is mine, my soul spilt, so my life may be eternal, I sacrifice their eternity for my own."

"They die in fire so that I may thrive their pain is mine my soul spilt so my life may be eternal I sacrifice their eternity for my own.—"

I repeated the spell twice more and as I said the final word all the blood was pulled into the heart like a magnet even the blood painted on my skin. The heart began to beat hard and glow dark red. Suddenly I felt an intense pain in my chest like my heart was being ripped from me. I could feel my soul tearing I screamed loudly my whole body felt ripped apart. A small blue orb floated from my mouth, my soul, it floated into the heart. The heart burst into flames leaving the ring behind.

"Good job"
"I'd tell you, your the greatest, but you've turned me into your enemy"
"Oh the misery. Spare the sympathy darling."
"Let Sirius go, that was our deal."
"Your free to go Sirius."

Tom untied Sirius and opened a portal to the gryffindor common room. I watched Sirius walk into the portal. My heart would never be the same.