Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
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What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step clo...ser
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“I stepped once and feel how my feet shakes and then second … feels like a long journey … third, I hold the flowers tight, feels like I won’t let this moment flew off the wind … fourth, I paint a smile on my face, feels like I won’t let the joy I have this very moment to last … fifth, there my eyes almost wanting to tear but I won’t. Until I got almost half on the aisle where a clear image of gift I saw, the reason why I took every step to move forward, the reason why I wanted to shout and tell the world, “I love this man whom I waited for so long, whom I’ll be with forever the moment I took the last step towards him. I love this man whom I’ll lend my hand to hold the promise we will bid together. I love this man I waited to come and the one He has given me.”
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kriiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnngggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..kriiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnngggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..
Haist! Oo na nga. babangon na ko. papasok na naman. magpapakaburo na naman sa school kasama ang mga weirdong prof, mga baliw na kaklase ... at ano pa nga ba... haaayyyyyy...
At!!! bagsak na ulit sa higaan.. ten minutes pa. Pagpikit ng mata ko, bigla sumagi sa isip ko yung naging panaginip ko kagabi. Ako ba yung babae dun? Ba't parang ang ganda??(kahit medyo blurred XD) Ang ganda pa ng gown niya at saka nung nilalakaran niyang aisle. Grabe. ang sarap sigurong ikasal?? So kelangan super career ng panaginip ko para pati line nung babae dun alam ko?? ang weird! Para siyang super duper inlove! and i never felt that way before... until now. siguro ang swerte niya dun sa groom.. ano kayang meron sa groom.. kung anuman yun.. gusto ko ganun maramdaman ko sa future groom k-- KKKKKRRRRRIIIIINNNNGGGGG!!!!
OK! Time to get up na Cristina.
Ayyy!!! (kunyari nagulat. XD) eh kasi, may pag-usap usap pa ko sa sarili ko eh kinukwentuhan ko na din kayo pero hindi niyo pa naman ako kilala. Oh, well! I am just a nobody! (waiting for somebody) CHAROT! oh eto na.. ako po si Cristina Angela Cruz a.k.a Gelai pero yung mga kaibigan kong magpapahiya, CRISTINANG BALIW ang gusto. well, ok na din. love ko naman sila. So bukod sa name ko, i am 21 years old, and will eventually graduate from college as BS Architecture student from.. secret. haha. I have a ..what shall i call this. hmmm. a messed up family. I have this very heartbreaking experience relationship during my first year of college till the fourth of the year. But in the weirdest thing done by the weirdest person that became the most special one in my life now, world turned whole again, broken pices were fixed and the lost me was found and... and... And the rest is history.. to be told in this story. XD. hohoho. So i am hoping i got your interest to read this unique story. A great story i wrote with great co-author i have.... Christ, our Lord. :)
WAY BACK 2009 .....
" Cristina! Halika na! Papagong pagong ka na naman dyan! Mahuhuli na tayo sa Graphics.
"Wait nga lang! GC ka talaga eh noh?" OOOPPPSSS... nakikita ko palang sa paglaki ng mata niya, maghihysteria na siya.
"CRISTINANG BBBBAAALLLLIIIIWWW!!! Naku! Nakakarindi, ineeskandalo na naman yung maganda kong pangalan.
First year pa lang, ang gulo na ng mundo ko. Hindi naman yung tipong may mga awar talaga. Magulo kasi sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Kaya heto, ang baliw ko na din. Nakakahawa eh. Pero yung gulong yun para sakin yung nagpapasira sa sistema ng utak ko. Kaya alam kong ito yung pumupuno sa kung anong kulang ngayon sa buhay ko. Haaayyy. Hindi rin biro tong pinasok kong kurso ah. Grabeh. Puyatan pala itey. Parang before, alam ko pa yung reason ko kung bakit pero habang tumatagal, nawawala na yung reason na yun. Gusto ko lang magdrawing. Fascinated ako sa iba't ibang uri ng arts lalo na pag designs ng bahay pero mahirap pala pag nagagandahan ka lang, nagugustuhan mo pero hindi mo magawang totoo. Matalino ako! Swear! Hindi lang halata kasi ganito ako ngayon. Parang walang alam sa patutunguhan. Since elem. hanggang highschool, I'm on the top. Ang sarap kayang mag-aral. (Oh? diba? Iba to!Haha) Pero biglang nawala interes ko when our family was gone through a hard time. My father turned out to be the worst dad after his suffering sa kaisa-isa niyang pangarap. That leads to his misunderstanding with my mom. She tried to fight for their relationship but things get worse nung maapektuhan kaming magkakapatid lalo na si kuya. Napariwara. I don't even know where he is right now. Haayy. Well, life must go on.
Ang tagal din ng itinunganga ko at ipinagmuni muni during break time. Wala kasi ako sa mood kumain.
Uuwi na nga lang ako. Wala na din namang gagawin.
Nasa bahay na ako, nang magulat ako sa nakita ko pagp[asok. Dalawang maleta. Kanino ang mga 'to? Nang biglang may su,migaw. I look where the screams came from. Yung umiiyak. Si mama yun ah. Then I go straight to their room. Si mama, nakaluhod sa harap ni papa, umiiyak. She's begging... for what?? Tinatanggal ni papa yung pagkakakapit ng kamay ni mama.
" Enough! I need to go. Take care of our kids. You no longer need me.!"
"No!.. Hindi!... Hindi mo kami pwedeng iwan, Ramon. Stop this nonsense. I am begging you. Just stay!. Kahit para sa mga anak na lang natin."
"Sinabi ng tama na! Hindi na mahalaga pa saken ang mga yan! I'll leave. At hindi na ako babalik pa.
Naririnig ko pa lang ang usapan nila, halos mabuwal na ko sa kinatatayuan ko, yung makita ko pa kaya, how my mother beg and how my father insisted to leave us. That really breaks my heart into pieces. Yung tipong ang hirap ng hanapin ng nawalang piraso at lalong mahirap buuin ang kulang na.
He turned away to my mom. Get his things and suddenly stop, looking at me. Alam kong pinaglalabanan niya yung emosyon niya ngayon. Pero mas pinaglalabanan niya yung intensyong iwan kaming pamilya niya.
"Anak..."
"Juat go."
I said these two words, without looking straight on his eyes. Ayokong uimyak. Kahit ako na lang yung matirang matibay. Though, I know. I am the one who is fragile. Knowing na mawawala yung pinakaiingatan ko at ipinagpapasalamat ko sa Diyos na binigay saken. The family I had before will never be back.. Never.
"Anak.. Hindi sa--"
"I said leave us!"\\He wanted to approach me. Ramdam ko, he wanted to hug me. For the last chance he has this moment. I will never give. He choose to leave. I choose not to letting him back.
Nang marinig ko ang pagsara ng pinto, napaluhod na lang ako. My tears never stop running along my cheeks. I wanted to leave this place. Ayokong marinig ang iyak ni mama. Ayokong makita siyang ganun.
And then, I run out of our house ang went nowhere.
