The cure for my madness

Part 9: Concerns

How am I going to bring this up to him? I don't want to break a relationship. It went 4 days without any conversations between him and I, I was so busy with work. But being busy didn't stop me from thinking about the situation. Now it was a friday evening and I just had dinner. I was now sitting on my couch trying to concentrate on a movie on the tv. My thoughts were distracting me, I had bitten my nails all week so much that it started to bleed. I need to talk to him, even if it would be so awkward. I need to talk to him tonight, just get it out of the way.

Hey, can you come over? We need to talk.

I know the text sounded overly dramatic. But this was a serious situation. I don't want him to break up with his girlfriend because of me, I know how it feels to be that girl.

Okay, I will be there in 5 min.

Those five minutes were killing me, it felt like an eternity. I thought for a long time thinking of how I was gonna bring this up. In the middle of my train of thoughts, it knocked on the door.

-"Hey...come on in." I said very nervously as I opened the door. He walked past me and sat on my couch. He looked nervous just as I did. I wondered what he thought I was going to talk about.

-"So, the thing that I wanted to talk about was um." I started saying as I sat down next to him.

-"I have heard that you um have a.... Girlfriend." I sighed with a shaky breath after saying that, not knowing how he would react.

-"Who?" He asked surprised.

-"Taylor, Sophie told me about it."

-"Oh we broke up like a month ago. It's just not public yet." He said and swallowed some tears in his throat. He was fidgeting with his ring that he had on his pinky finger. His eyes were stuck on the floor.

-"You broke up?"

-"Yeah, she met someone else." He sighed, still fidgeting.

-"I was so scared that I would be the reason for your break up and that you cheated on her with me. But that is sad to hear Al"

-"When you said those things outside the club, you really put words on everything that I have felt. I can relate to your feelings, alot." Now he looked up to me, his eyes looked sad.

-"I had no idea you were going through the same thing." I said and found his hand and stroked it comfortably.

-"But as you said. I'm glad I'm not together with her anymore. It would just hurt us both." He looked sad but also relieved. He gave me a forced smile that says I'm fine but I actually feel like shit.

-"Do you want to stay over tonight?" I asked nervously, I sorta was hoping that he would stay. Maybe he didn't want to be alone?

-"Yeah, if you want to."

-"I would love that." I said with a reassuring smile.

-"What do you wanna do then? Watch a movie?"

-"Sure."

Then I scrolled through the channels on the TV to see what we could watch.

-"Wait, can you go back." he said as I did that.

-"I love that movie." He said with a smile on his face.

-"I have never seen it."

-"What do you mean you've never seen Blade runner?"

-"I don't know why I haven't seen it yet. We can watch it now if you like."

-"But If we are gonna watch a movie, we need snacks then." I said with a smile and walked to my kitchen and popped some popcorn.