𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐈𝐍 ❥ 西村リキ

«𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐳𝐞»

«𝕴𝖙'𝖘 𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖋𝖊𝖈𝖙 𝖔𝖓 𝖎𝖙𝖘 𝖔𝖜𝖓»

「AHNJONG」

i looked behind me, at jay. my eyes welled up with tears when i looked at the dead bodies.

why do i care?

they abused me..

i wiped those tears away and sniffled grabbing the nearest object, being a wooden plank, and throwing it onto the corpses in anger.

"you can hurt me all you want.." i stammered, "yet i'm still here wasting my tears on you sick people!"

i fell down to my knees and cried my eyes out. nothing hurt me more than seeing myself as a coward, wasting my tears on these strangers who made me feel like a burden

a loud cry echoed through the basement.

footsteps of the others were heard when i threw yet another object, but someone restrained my arms from doing that again.

i felt someone wrap their arms around my waist and hug me tight.

they shushed me, soon rubbing my back.

i turned around and saw niki, giving me a soft smile and then pulling me into his embrace.

"it's okay..." he reassured, placing his chin ontop of my head while swaying with me, calming me down from my breakdown.

the others left.

only niki and i were in the basement by ourselves.

"i'll take you to my room. you can rest peacefully there, yeah?" he took my hand, intertwined our fingers and dragged me into his room.

"if you need something, just let me know." with that, he left the room, until i stopped him.

"no.. stay.." i quivered.

niki turned to look at me.

a soft blush crept onto his cheeks when he faced me but insisted.

"fine.." he mumbled.

we found ourselves in bed.

i was tearing up again when pictures of the dead bodies flooded my mind.

"stupid! stupid!" i cried into nikis chest and hit it repeatedly.

「AUTHOR」

niki didn't mind when ahnjong let out her frustration on him.

as long as it helped her cope, he didn't care.

"listen, this was all my idea..." he admitted, "you have mixed feelings because of me. you can be mad at me all you want.. i blame myself, too."

ahnjongs facial expression changed from a sad one, to worry.

she pulled away and cupped his face, looking him dead in the eyes with her teary vision.

"y-you.." she sniffled, her lips quivering at the thought, "why..."

niki was at the verge of tears holding one of her hands and looking down at his lap in guilt.

"why did you do that...?" ahnjong cried, looking at him with many emotions.

anger, sadness, shame... and worry.

"niki.." the girl called, "please tell me why..."

he rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb, his body shivering because of the guilt he felt.

he shouldn't have done it.

he knew he shouldn't have.

yet, he still did.

"i..." he started, but hesitated to finish that sentence.

the boy pursed his lips, forming a thin line.

he then looked at the girl sitting opposite from him, a tear streaming down his cheek with shame.

"i wanted to protect you, keep you safe.." he sighed.

"w-what..?"

"because i love you.."

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