You Got Me

You Got Me

Hey you. Yes you.

Have you ever love a guy?

A guy that's out of reach?

Of course there's a guy like that.

He could be an actor.

Your favorite band member.

A character from any animated films.

And worse of all, he could be gay.

When all else fail, did you gave up too?

If there's a chance that he might be reached, would you take a risk and fall?

If you'll ask me I wouldn't. It's too risky to fall in love... with a gay.

Would you mind if I share my story to you?

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I'm Mer and he is Nat. 'He' is my first friend. My first gay friend to be exact. We have known each other since the first day of college but he doesn't interest me at all. My first impression of him was a guy who is arrogant and full of himself. He was a narcissistic idiot who was always on the look out for hot guys. We never really talk until one of my friends introduced him to me.

After we got to know each other, I've come to know the fact that he was really a narcissist. He loves praising his own face, his body, and everything that could be praised in him. He was funny in his own way. He loves to tease and we kind of clicked without me knowing how or when.

We became close friends but never the best of friends. There's just this traits of him that I couldn't seem to wholeheartedly accept. But we are in the same circle of friends so we were always together.

Our past-time was trying to act like a couple. Our friends always tease us because of that. He calls me babe, I do too. He feeds me his food while I fed him mine. He likes to hug and when he's trying to think, he plays with my hair. He also helps me with my things whenever I have too many baggage that I can't seem to carry. Those were the simple gestures that made us look like a couple. One of our friends even told us that if we ever really became a couple, they would support us.

He was a sweet guy, I'll admit that. Someone who is always there when I need help and he's the kind of person who'll join my silly antics. But I always told them that it would never happen because I don't really see him that way and he's such a flirt. He always flirts with handsome guys and you'll know that it wouldn't happen unless he'll change his preferences. Or I'll change my gender. Which I'll never cross. Ever. I also love to look at handsome men, sorry. I did thought of us being a couple but I shove it off. Just no. I'm happy with us playing around. For now. Maybe.

It was on our second year that something changed. He became distant. We rarely talk and I noticed that. When I call him to join us for lunch, he'll say he's not hungry or that he's eating with the other guys. He even told me that he has a date when we all knew that he's single at the moment and not seeing anyone, because he always told us if there was. When we go out with our friends to watch a movie, he'll avoid the seat beside me, we always seat together because we love to make fun of the actors.But not in those times.

I was the type of person that if I get attach to someone, I won't ever try to forget them. Even if they forget about me. Because we are really close I asked him on our free period if there's something wrong, or if I did anything that is not to his liking.

"We rarely talk nowadays. Are you busy babe? Did you perhaps got a boyfriend?" I told him with the usual tone I've used ever since we pretended to be a couple.