Bottoms Up, Forget Tonight (Revelry Series #2)

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I was shaking so bad inside the elevator. I still can't believe what I just saw! Parang ginunaw ang mundong unti-unti kong binubuo para sa aming dalawa!

May anak na siya at hindi man lang niya sinabi sa akin?! I felt so betrayed! I felt dumb! Damn, this is too much!

How could he do that? How could he spend his every night... every dinner... with me... if he has a child waiting for him?! Ang daming pagkakataon na pwede niyang sabihin sa akin pero hindi niya man lang ginawa? Pinagmukha niya akong tanga!

I'm so mad at him! Fucking asshole! I couldn't believe he could do this!

Nagpupuyos ako sa galit nang nakarating sa parking. Mabigat ang bawat hakbang ko palapit sa sasakyan. Halfway through there, narinig ko ang pagbukas ng elevator at ang tunog ng mga paa na tumatakbo palapit sa akin. Without looking to see who is it, I got a hunch so I started walking faster.

"Cahira!" he called me.

I'm damn right! Napamura ako at mas binilisan ang paglalakad.

Nanginginig ang katawan ko sa halo halong emosyon. Nang makalapit sa sasakyan, agad kong binuksan 'yon. Unfortunately, he was quick to get to me.

"Cahira, let's talk first, please!" he pleaded.

Hinawi ko ang kamay niya at tinitigan siya ng masama. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili at nasampal siya. We were both shocked at my sudden slap, but I was the first one to recover.

I saw how his cheeks turned red. Guilt crept within me. Gusto kong mag-sorry pero mas lamang talaga ang galit ko ngayon.

"I will never listen to you again! You are a liar and a fucking asshole! You just lost your chance to me!" I shouted and turned my back at him.

Pumasok ako sa sasakyan nang hindi siya nililingon. Nag-umpisa na naman tumulo ang mga luha ko. Wala na akong pakialam kung makita niya ang pag-iyak ko. Sige at nang malaman niya kung gaano siya kagago!

Bago tuluyang umalis, binuksan ko ang bintana at tinignan siya.

"Huwag na huwag mo akong susundan." Mariin kong sabi sakaniya.

He looked at me with so much pain in his eyes. I looked back with nothing but anger and coldness.

I was about to close the window when I heard him speak.

"Adara's not my child. Believe me, Cahira..."

But that time, I was too mad to even listen. I felt too betrayed to even hear him. So, I just closed the window and started driving away without believing what he said.

So the little girl's name is Adara, huh?

Umiyak ako nang umiyak habang nagmamaneho paalis. Ni hindi ko alam kung ano ang unang iisipin. My mind is going haywire. It was a big blow to me.

May anak siya...

The love of my life already has a child with someone... How could I immediately accept that?

Naalala ko 'yong mukha ng bata habang nasa gitna ng daan. She's a carbon copy of her mom. I also remember how she looked so excited to see her... Dada. She's so happy that she can't even wait for him to stepped inside the unit. Sinalubong niya na ang Daddy niyang late umuwi dahil... nasa akin.

I bit my lips hard. I feel so guilty and hurt. Pakiramdam ko inagawan ko ang bata ng oras. Those nights I spent with her father should've been hers. It hurts more to think of her waiting in the middle of the night.

Alam ko 'yong ganoong pakiramdam, eh. I was once like that. Noong bata pa ako at hindi pa tanggap ng buo na hiwalay na ang parents ko, at na may bago ng pamilyang inuuwian si Papa, may mga gabi na naghihintay ako na kami naman ang uwian niya.