MATT POV
I hug my stomach as I drop my head on my desk. I don't know how but it's hurt my stomach after we did twice. Was it normal? I close my eye and sigh softly. Should I talk to him? No2, I don't want to burden him with my problem anymore. And speaking of problem...I haven't told him about his ex wife yet. Her words still ringing in my ear. As if she's right about it.
"...happy eh", I mutter
"I told u to open ur window"
I quickly shot up my head and sit straight when his voice snap me from my thought. He walk upstairs and ruffle my hair as he go to the window opening it. I clear my throat and touch my hair where his hand land. A bit blush. Well, at least he love me even though I don't know if he's happy with me.
I run my eyes to him and freeze when he actually look at me first. He smile at me which I can't help but to look away. I know I shouldn't have turn cause he will be suspicious but I can't help myself. I just want to hide in the closet. I can't take her word out from my head.
'And u thought he's happy with u? Ur freaking annoying and sore to people eyes. U fcking know that urself. Don't forget...ur the one who put him in the hospital'
I bite my lips and I can feel my scar hand shaking. But then his hand take mine as I look up at him.
"Ur shaking", he kiss my hand," Come here"
He don't need to tell me twice as I lunge myself to him and hide my face in his shirt. He rub my back as he kiss my head hushing me softly.
"Em here, Matt", he run his finger in my hair as I sniff," Let it out. It will be okay. Em here for u"
And just like that, I cry in his embrace. More like a kid who got caught stealing. His hand keep rubbing my back trying to make me feel okay but I know he can't. Not till I know if he's actually happy living with me. So I force myself to break away and push his body. He did try to hold me but I shook my head and make him loosen his grip.
"Hey", he call softly," What's wrong?"
I sniff as he touch my cheek. Gently wipe my tears.
"Em sorry if I force u into something u don't like", he said and I know he's worrying about me," Did I hurt u anywhere?"
I shook my head as I bite my lips. He press his thumb on my lips breaking it as he said not to bite it. Which I listen and try my best to not keep shaking.
"...r u happy living with me?"
Finally I said it. I didn't dare to look up but then he spoke.
"I am happy. Just being around u r much than enough. We're living together, Matt"
"What if I hurt u? Like our first meet? What if I didn't listen to u-"
"-That was exception. Everyone make mistake. And we learnt from it", he cut me
I clench my fist. He's not answering it. He doesn't want to blame me.
"I-if I put u in danger again...will u even happy-"
"-Look at me, Matt", he cup my face and pull my face up to him," Clearly something going on. What or who make u think like that?"
When he spoke a bit stern like that, I break again. Like a baby. I can't help to feel like he's mad with me. Realize em crying, he pull me to a hug.
"Damn...em sorry. I didn't mean to speak that way", he kiss my head," But em worry about u", he pull away kissing my cheek before look at me in the eye," Is there something u wanna tell me, Matt?"
