The Power Of Rejection

Have you ever felt like none of the other kids like you? That they think they are to good for you just because you are shy? I thought that way from as far back as I can remember till the beginning of 4th grade. Nobody can tell it hurts. All they see is a boy sitting alone at recess watching all the other kids (boys and girls) play football. They don't understand that unless that boy gets over his shyness very soon, he will be haunted by the memories of rejection for the rest of his life. Now I'm 15. I've changed a lot since 4th grade. I'm willing to put myself out there and do the stupid, crazy things just so people notice me and I won't be alone again. People notice when something is wrong with me because I get all quiet and I have a dazed look on my face, sometimes I even start to cry. When I act like that it is almost always the memories flooding my mind taking me back to the days when I had no true friends. If only I could go back to my 6 year old self when all this really began and tell him, no matter how alone you may feel, God is always there for you just waiting on you to look his way. I can't do that though so I am stuck with the pain of rejection that cuts right through me. That nobody knew about, until now.