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i lost myself , i been smoking more and drinking again Partying every night and randomly sleeping with men Cause i just wanna fucking feel pretty again • • As i drove to club i sang these words with my heart . I cried and cried not caring about my vision being blurry i hit my blunt as many times as i could , ignoring the burning pain in my chest . Rashad words cut me deep in my heart and every word he said hurt me . I pulled into the club and into a parking a space and pulled down my sun visor to look in the mirror . My eyes were blood shot red and i had snot all over my nose . I had tears stained on my cheek and i smelled like weed . I grabbed a tissue and cleaned my nose and grabbed some eye drops to put in my eyes before going inside to club to get dressed and fix my makeup . As i headed inside the club i waved at Killa and went to the back I spoke to everybody and sat down at the vanity and started to do my makeup
" damn who slapped her" Kandy whispered
" i don't know , they pimped slapped her tho" Michelle giggled
I turned around . " What the fuck y'all said ? , Bitch Michelle i don't know why you talking your baby daddy beat your ass everyday" i said
" Bitch what you say? i'll beat your ass" She yelled
" Hey , Diamond you're on in 20 first stage and they want you to do 3 songs and be nude for the last one" My friend sage told me
" Nude ? On a Wednesday ? It must be the old men out there while their wives at bible study cause what the hell" I mumbled
Everybody giggled and i was dead serious . I went into my locker and grabbed a pair of thongs and my 6" nude heels . I decided to wear all back two piece skirt set that's was see through with black rhinestones . I made sure to put on moisturizer and made sure my lace looked right . I took off the lashes i had on and put on some bigger ones . I sprayed my Warm Vanilla from Bath and Body works . I made sure my nipple rings looked right before it was time for me to go on .
" Aye aye now if you a broke nigga you might as well exit the stage , cause i'm about to bring out the most big baller lady i know , she gonna take all your money and make you leave your wife , introducing DIAMOND" Cali shouted in the mic .
All the men in front of the stage roared and shouted while already throwing money on the stage . I walked over to the pole slowly while " Power " by Kevin Gates started playing
so you hid away and never tell You say that darkness knows you well Lesson of love , all that it was I need to see You got that power over me , my , my
I moved my body to beat while every men in there was looking at me hungrily , I wrapped hands around the pole and bent over shaking a little bit . I jumped on the pole and climbed to the top . I put one hand on the top of the pole and wrapped my legs around the pole before sliding all the way down slowly with head back looking at the crowd
Everything I hold dear resides in those eyes Got that power over me , my , my
I got off the pole and crawled over to the front of the stage and arched my back , Letting the men in front get a glimpse of my black thong . I got up and removed my pulled down my bra strap to my two piece and started moving my hips . I started to grind my body up and down and while taking off my whole and using the platform on my heels to balance myself .
After the last two songs i picked up my clothes and Killa started sweeping up my money for me and putting it in my trash bag . I went back inside the room and saw sage and Robin .
" hey y'all" I said going over to my locker to get another outfit
" hey girly , we missed you !" They said smiling
" and that body" Robin Gay self said
I turned and Shook my tits for them . " Robin you know I want you , why you playing"i asked jokingly
She giggle and kissed my butt ." why them hoes Kandy and Michelle was on you ? Not even gone hold you them hoes really been asking for it , I just can't stand trashy stripper's" she said shaking her head
" girl who knows ? , Im just tryna make my money and leave , ain't they too old to be stripping ? I heard Kandy got Sparkle Raped at her Brother , Ced party" I said
" whattt" They said at the same time
" hell yeah , but i gotta go work the booths , love y'all" i said walking out
" Hey Kenzie , Can i get two shots of pink Whitney and mix me something up fruity" i said to the bartender
" ok boo" she said turning around
I looked around the club seeing a few regulars and men getting laps dances and women too . I looked to a certain booth and seen somebody that looked too familiar for my liking , i shook my head and downed my two shots and started drinking my drink . It was 2:34 and the club was pretty crowded . After i finished my drink i paid Kenzie and pulled my thongs out my ass and walked over to the booth . It was 4 guys and 3 girls , one of them looked over at me and had a smug on her face .
" who's the birthday boy" i asked looking around
" my nigga right here" a boy asked pointing to this dark sun boy who eyes lit up once he seen me
" well he gets the first dance" i said
I told them rules about recording and, After being in the booth with them for about 15 minutes I let loose let loose and by this time i was tipsy and naked . The 3 girls had eventually warmed up to me and was rubbing all over me as I twerked . I stood and turned around and whispered in the boy ear that looked familiar and asked if he wanted a dance . I stood there for a minute and smelled his cologne and looked at his neck at the tattoo that he never got covered up
" Alexis T" it read with a pair of Blue lips - Our favorite color
" omg , i have to go" i panicked and hurried to the room • • After recollecting my thoughts I headed out to my car to only see him leaning on the hood of my car looking fine as ever .
" damn girl wassup ? What you dancing now" he asked licking his lips
I chuckled . " What you expected me to do ? I can't go back living like THAT , I gotta take care of me right?" i said
" man just get in the car and follow me i'm serious Lexis" he said walking off
