The Sky Under The Sea. {Sequel To Lead Me Out Of The Dark.}

Chapter 6:Synthetic Love.

Zundra's P.O.V:

I decided I should come out from Austin and I's bedroom. I've been in there for days. I always made Austin bring Robert to me, but now I need to be mature and face this world with no care in the world.

I walked downstairs to see Alan sitting on the couch with no t.v on or anything, just biting his nails, one of his worse habits. "Alan quit biting your nails." I shout. He jumps and literally almost falls off the couch. "Woah, calm down. I didn't mean to scare you." I walk up to the couch and sit right beside him. He doesn't even look at me he just moves away and keeps his gaze on the ground. Austin told me about the way he was acting but I never knew it was this bad.

I started off with doing the morning routine with Robert. I haven't done that in days, so it felt good to start again. I felt like a new person. I know I should be all down and depressed but doing what I did taught me a big lesson in life. I know I scared so many people but they all changed for the better.

I brought Robert downstairs and held him closely to me. I walked up to Alan and stood in front of him. "Want to hold him?" Alan shook his head and moved to the other side of the couch. I sighed and put Robert in his play pen. I turned around and looked at Alan. He looked so lost, he didn't look like Alan. "Alan?" He nodded his head but didn't move his gaze from Robert. I sat beside him but kept some distance. "Alan, I need to talk to you. The way you've been acting is affecting people close to you. Austin's becoming distant as well as the rest of the band. I love you and I forgive you for what happened none of it was your fault." He put his head down and shook the hair out of his face. That's when I noticed marks on his neck. FUCKING ROPE MARKS ON HIS NECK!

"ALAN ASHBY!" I yelled scaring Alan. He looked up at me for a second and soon realized I was staring at his neck. "Alan, why? I mean I tried to as well. I don't know. Just please promise me you wont ever do that, or this." I leaned closer to him and reached for his arm and flipped it over to show his cuts. He pulled his arm back and scratched at them. "Alan stop it! Just please promise me. I can't lose you, none of the boys ever want to lose you. We all love and care for you Alan, believe me. You mean the world to me." I started crying. Alan looked up, tears now flowing down his cheeks as well. He nodded and whispered something. "Wha-what?" I managed to get out. "I promise." He said a little louder.

I moved closer to Alan and reached my arms out. "Please Alan, I understand what you're going through. I understand, I'm here for you. Please I just want my ginger princess back." I started crying harder. He quickly pushed my arms down and wrapped his around me. We both sat there holding each other and crying. We both looked at each other, "Promise each other that we wont ever try anything like this again, please, if you ever need to talk I'm here, no matter what." He nodded, "I promise." I reached my pinkie out and he laughed a little and wrapped his pinkie around mine. He wiped my tears away and hugged me again.

Austin walked in and Alan quickly moved away from, scared from the sudden noise. "Woah, was Alan just hugging you?" He asked shocked. I nodded and laughed. "Yeah, I finally got him back." Austin went to go reach out for Alan to hug him but Alan moved and put his knees to his chest. Why is he acting like this towards the guys? Why is he even acting like this to begin with? I mean I'm not dead, everybody's fine, right? Austin sighed and walked up to Robert's paly pen and leaned down and kissed him. He came over to me and kissed me. "How was your sleep baby?" He asked sitting down next to me and grabbed my hand, holding it in his. "Good." I smiled and kissed him. Alan got up and went downstairs. I needed to talk to him again, clearly.

"Hey, babe? Mike invited us over to have a little gathering." Austin called from the kitchen. I got up and walked into the kitchen. "I don't know if that's the best thing for Alan right now." Austin looked at me and gave me a puppy dog face. I laughed and pushed him playfully. "Wait, tell me why Joel couldn't go to the hospital again?" Austin asked confused. I sighed at how he changed the subject. "He hates hospitals no matter who's there he wont go. His brother recently died and he had to sit there and watch it all happen. I understand, I would never make him go back to the hospital unless its for his own being." Austin nodded in understanding.