Happy new year to oikawa

Oikawa's night alone???

[Dont judge pls I made this at 3am 😭]
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I woke up to the sound of light rain hitting my window, I thought it was odd because it really doesn't rain much where I'm from. I mean we could be known for the change in weather but that's mostly for snow. I look at the time. "12:56am?" And that's when I realized I had slept the whole day.

Which sucked because it's New Year's Eve but I guess that doesn't matter anymore. I was annoyed though, I scrolled through my phone notifications to see all the "happy New Year's "messages I got from all my friends and some of my family member's while I was sleeping. Of course I didn't bother to open them. That was just too much for me, and I was to tired

"What's the point of saying happy new year?" I don't see the importance of it. Okay yeah it's a new year but who cares though? For other people it's like a new start in life but for me? It's just another day on this fucking planet"

Pov: Oikawa

I put my phone back on the nightstand. And try to roll myself out of bed, the floor was cold but it was cold enough to wake me up so I didn't care.

I felt sick sleeping in my own sweat so I decided to take a shower not really caring what time it was anymore. It was for nothing special I just needed to get it done and shower

I bring my phone to the bathroom so I can listen to music and try to relax myself. As I turn on the water so we can be cold but a little warm so I don't get sick, I noticed myself in the mirror and I see eye bags? "What?" I noticed how pretty dark they are which is kind of weird for me since I am getting sleep.

"Maybe I'm just not getting enough sleep?"

For Oikawa sleep was an escape from everything and not just reality. All he wanted at this point was to be alone and sleep his life away. He didn't care what day it was or if there was a party that he was invited to. Life was really playing with him and he just wanted to get away. Sometimes he would even fuck up his sleep schedule so he could sleep longer. He didn't care about his grades anymore, he didn't care about anything anymore. All he wanted to do was be alone and sleep forever.

I mean he wasn't depressed or anything he just was done with everything life had thrown at him and he doesn't care anymore. And now he hast to deal with it for another year "What a pain in my knee"

~After the shower~

Oikawa had turned off the water, dried his body and put some clothes on and just all the normal bathroom stuff. "What time is it" he picked up his phone from the counter to check the time. "1:24 AM" he put his phone back down and started to look at himself in the mirror, God he look like a mess but he didn't care anymore all he wanted to do was just relax for a bit.

He returned to his room board. Then suddenly he felt the urge to be one of those teenagers who just has a random burst of energy in the middle of the night.

"I'm gonna clean my room" there's really nothing much to clean he's not a dirty person so I guess tidy his room?

He put music to distract himself and cleaned

~After Cleaning~

He decided to sit by the window seal and just watch the stars in the sky. He loves stars and everything about space. Hell he was a nerd for them he felt like that was his comfort place and just seeing stars made him happy.

He began to speak

"Hey iwa-Chan!! How are you??? It's lonely without you yk?? I miss you so much."

Pov: Oikawa

I felt something in my heart.

"I miss how you would yell at me every morning to wake me up"

~Flashback~

Oikawa was sleeping so peacefully until he bolted out of bed due to the sudden loud bang. He looked around and realized that his iwa-Chan was standing by the door

"IWA-CHAN WTF???" Iwazumi speed walked towards him and lightly smacked oikawa on the head

"Shittykawa it's time to wake up!"

"But iwaaaa" oikawa whining becus he doesn't like being woken up.

~End~

Back to the Pov

I can feel like tears forming in my eyes and I know I shouldn't be crying or even thinking about him but I can't help it.

A/Pov

Oikawa couldn't help but cry and as he was crying he noticed that it started to snow. He loves the snow he also loves every moment he played with Iwaizumi in the snow. All the moments they both had with each other in the snow was just amazing

"I wish I could play in the snow with you one last time iwa-Chan"
Oikawa walked over to his bed. Curled up in a ball with a white soft blanket covering him. He grabbed his alien plushy that Iwazumi gave him for his 18th birthday.

Oikawa hated New Year's he hated that he had to spend another year without his best friend he hated it and he hated every bit of New Year's.

Oikawa took out his phone to check the time "4 AM already?" He cried once more once he saw his wallpaper from his lock screen. It was a picture of both of them smiling together and just having fun.
God how he missed the fun they would always have together

"I'm sorry I failed you iwa-Chan, I never meant for any of this to happen" oikawa shaking and crying. He felt so vulnerable and weak. "It should've been me in the car" he shut his eyes "it should've been me in the hospital bed" he was scared for the new year "it should've been me that day"

Oikawa got up from his bed and walked over to his dresser. He picked up a picture frame and walked back into bed and crawled back into the same ball. He gently took the picture out of the frame and flipped it to the other side. There was writing and as a Oikawa read it he began to cry

"Hey shittykawa, don't forget about me, if you do, I'm going to kick your ass. I love you so much yk?? I'm always gonna be there for you. I'm always gonna stay by your side until the very end. I'm very proud for you! You're doing so amazing. I love you so much that it's sad I never got to tell you in person. Sincerely Your iwa-Chan <3"

Iwazumi had given it to him on graduation day.

Oikawa soon cried himself to sleep. And all he could think about was how much the world had hated him for all these years. He thought he had done nothing wrong to deserve any of this but I guess his faith said otherwise.

He hated the fact that he couldn't tell Iwaizumi how much he loves him back,  that how much he wanted to spend the rest of time with him until the end.

"𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘 𝚒𝚠𝚊𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚖𝚒. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚢, 𝚒'𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒'𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏"

~End~