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▎ new year special! 2022

just a heads up: this one is about chifuyu :) !
there will be implications? that the reader struggles with mental health issues, such as depression.
also this is not chapter seven! i still need to write it lmao

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"HAPPY NEW YEAR!" you shouted, hands reaching up and a wide grin plastered on your face. you felt so giddy, a silent feeling that this year was going to be good, you 100% knew it.

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it was at least nearing 2 o'clock am. half of toman roamed a now deserted playground (though not really a play ground). it was freezing outside, you had at least 3 layers of clothing on; a white long sleeved shirt, a grey hoodie and then a puffy olive green winter jacket, wool lining the inside keeping you snug as the air froze around you.

you looked around at the boys. half of them conversing, making plans for break, their resolutions, basically anything you could think of. you glanced over to the side. your eyes tracking a familiar ravenette, who's grin (although a bit off putting at times) was contagious. baji was currently tormenting takemichi - chasing him with a sparkler he stole from the nearby store - as mikey and kazutora watched on. the occasional "he's almost got you mitchy!' or "GO BAJI! GET EM'!" encouraging the blond to run faster, like his life depended on it. (it probably did to be honest)

once you found yourself tired of the repeated cycle of cries of fear, encouragement, and then more cries, your gaze drifted towards hina, emma and darken. hina was currently trying to hype emma up. assuming the female sano was going to try and ask darken to 'hang out'. yeah right. you silently stifled a laugh. they were adorable together, basically destined to be. so we're mitchy and hina. you could tell, just by how much your cousin cries in his sleep about her, it was obvious that they loved each other very much.

you were situated on a layered concrete platform, similar to the park near the hanagaki residence also where the mizo mid crew would occasionally play soccer. you breathed out, a puff of warm air escaping into the cooling atmosphere. nights like this sometimes gave even more reasons to stay. maybe it was the small nostalgic feeling or being surrounded by people you cared for. sometimes you craved for nights like these, ones where you can look back on and think about how happy you were then.

but even then, there was always this indescribable gnawing feeling in your chest and occasionally the pit of your stomach. the ache would last for a while, always leaving you confused. what caused this crushing feeling? do others know how it feels? was it normal? well, you already knew that it wasn't, at least you think that it isn't.
you had no reason to feel this way, no cause, no nothing.

there was a rustle to to your left, distracting you from your influx of thoughts. the sound of fabrics brushing against each other made you cringe, it was an unpleasant but nice sound. not sure how to describe matter, you shrugged it away.

"chifuyu?" your gaze finally reaching the male. he was looking ahead, a small hum in acknowledgement to your presence.

if you were being honest with yourself, you had always been slightly envious of his good looks. sure you were good looking, of course you were, but chifuyu... he- he was just breathtaking sometimes, some times like right now. his blue eyes complimented the growing white scenery, nose and cheeks flushed due to the climate (to be honest, it made him look cuter).

you were snapped out of your thoughts when you noticed he had shuffled closer to you, sitting about 5cm or so apart. chifuyu let out a content sigh and smiled. you felt yourself quietly lean into him, your (f/c) scarf slowly unraveling at the movement. he peered down to your face which was now resting on his shoulder.

"you look a little uncomfortable." he awkwardly smiled, noticing the small - but annoying that it would make you spine stretch at a slightly odd angle - gap between each other. you nodded but didn't budge from your spot. the boy sighed and took the initiative to huddle closer to you. would wrapping an arm around you be too much?

you noticed the weather had become more chilly than before and pulled the beanie down in an attempt to keep your ears warm. your teeth slightly chattered from underneath the scarf causing the boy beside you to reach an arm over and pull you closer. you unconsciously snuggled into chifuyu in an attempt to keep warm. oh how you envied the people that got to be in there cozy little houses with there cozy little fireplace and or heater that are wrapped up in ther cozy blankets.

"i think we should start heading back, it's getting pretty cold." you could only nod at his words, a bit too cold to comprehend whatever the hell he was saying. he shifted beside you, pulling you up with him. you were still latched to his side, half asleep.

'wait..' you froze, not from the cold but from the realisation that just hit you. chifuyu stopped two, noticing the confused expression evident on your face, "what is it?"

you quickly unravelled your self from his hold, face blistering red and burning from the embarrassment, "uh, uhm.." you started, fumbling with the words that you were still trying to figure out what to say. the blond lightly chucked, face shaded a light pink as he looked away, rubbing the back of his neck. "ahem" you pressed your fist to your face as if you were really coughing.

'that was awkward.'

the two juveniles quickly glanced over to the latter, locking eyes briefly to then quickly look away glowing even redder than before.

after a long period of awkward silence and continuous but brief glances casted towards the other, the two noticed that the group was slowly but surely making their opposite ways home.

"so.." they both began, now fully facing each other. your throat started bubbling with laughter, chifuyu joining in.

"ha," you panted before catching your breath, "i guess i'll talk to you later." you smiled, hands resting in your knees, unfailingly keeping your eyes open. you straighten, preparing yourself to walk over to your cousin.

"um, y/n," chifuyu mumbled, eyes slowly leaving your figure. he fidgeted with his hands, fingers intertwined and attempting to crack his knuckles (for what you could tell at least).
"i, uh.." he paused, "nevermind. could you message me when you get home?" he smiled softly as his eyes made their way to yours. you nodded, pulling your scarf down to give him a quick smile before walking away.

'now or never'

chifuyu gently huffed before grabbing your arm in an attempt to stop you. he froze when you turned to face him again, a confused but happy smile gracing your lips. taking all his will power to not cower out now, chifuyu quickly gave you a small pack on your forehead then quickly turning and running way, possibly to catch up with baji and kazutora.

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tonight had been the perfect distraction from the negative thought that casually plagued your brain on the daily. but now there were new thoughts that hung around, mostly concerning a certain blondie. you traced your fingers on the spot chifuyu kissed you, the occasional bump in the road causing them to make contact.

today was one of those rare days where the lingering thoughts were the least of your concern, and hopefully, tomorrow would be too.

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unedited | 1272? words | 1.jan
a/n
i love chifuyu 😇
also please excuse any grammar or punctuation errors, i'm pretty tired and can't be bothered to read through lol