letters never sent

to the person who drifted away from my grasp,

how do i write? how do i tell you about the things i'm afraid to utter? how do i tell you that i lied when i said that my heart already stopped longing for your warmth? that my hand no longer seek yours? how do i tell you about the letters i stacked on my shelf that remained unsent? the words that never found its way to you?

having these overwhelmingly romantic feelings for you wasn't just a fleeting moment. it's something that i never expected to last longer that i thought it would. you helped me unravel the beauty of the cosmos i couldn't see before. you were there by my side as i reached the vast sky with my fingertips. you made me feel like stars were dancing across my skin.

you'll never know about it all, because i am a lovesick coward who's afraid that once you know about my feelings that was kept hidden, it might ruin the peace i have found in your comfort. afraid to hear another of your rejection, another of your goodbye; for the fear that it might break me for good this time, and shatter the already broken pieces of my heart into tiny tears. so, this time, i will allow my feelings to be only translated in silence.

loving you still,

seah.