You Made Me Felt Loved- Yours, William

7: We Both Know That's Not True William

Time skip :1 Week

After I said I ask a person out William didn't text me... Called me or even met me

I didn't go out with this classmate because I wasn't brave enough to love someone else Than William I am so worried about him I heard how his mom fight with him because he drank Alkohol I put on my shoes and ran to his house

His dad opened the door and said "hi... Uhm if you want to William he is in his room pleas try to talk to him" I run to his room but it was closed I knocked on the door and he opened it... His eyes were red and he had dark circles under them, he had his Hoodie on and sweatpants he look at me "F-fynn..." I started talking "I'm sorry if you don't want to see me right now but I -" he Interrupted me with hugging me and saying "F-Fynn you're the only person I want to see come in.. I'm sorry that I look this way right now" I kissed his cheek and said "it doesn't matter for me how you look" normally his room was a bit messy but this time it was tidied and cleaned I said "William... What happened why are your eyes so red" I sat down and look him in his red but pretty eyes he started explaining "when you said to me you Ask someone out u was scared that it would change something between us or you would forget me... And I was to scared to look you in the eyes, because I was ashamed of myself.." I hugged him "William I didn't go on that date..." he asked me "did he say no?" I laughed "no you idiot. He said yes but I couldn't go because of you I was to worried" he looked at me shocked and whispered "I'm such an idiot"

I hugged him again, his cheeks got this Bright red. I laughed it was so cute but I felt like an idiot because I wanted to look for someone new how can love destroy something so beautiful like William he said "uhm I wanted to go shower bevor you came uhm but I ca-" I interrupted him "it's okay, I will go to Kim" he nodded and took clothes out of his Shelf and went to the bathroom I went to Kim's room and knocked she opened the door and said "hey!" she hugged me "come in"

I sat besides Kim she ask "hey uhm did you spoke with William because I tried it and he doesn't speak with anyone right now... Because of you" I smiled "yeah we clarified everything he was worried because of our friendship -" she looked confused "Friendship?" I nodded "W-what I-uhm thought because he speaks of you that way isn't he in love with I-i mean and uhh I'm an idiot" what is she speaking about "in what way does he speaks about me?" she shakes her head "nothing"

What the fuck? I need to talk about this with William I ran out the room and knocked I didn't want to see him naked....okay I kind of want but not in this time... Ugh Fynn concentrate! Someone said "come in!" I opened the door he ask me "anndd what do you want to talk about.. It's boring here" I began to speak "so... Kim told me something..that you spoke about me in a certain way?" he looked at me flustered "I-uhm I don't know what you're talking about" I looked at him with crossed arms "william why does Kim think you love me?" he was obviously nervous "she overheard you talking about something... And she overheard me talking about you and now uhm... She thinks that I -ugh she's just sometimes crazy I wouldn't speak about you in that way" I laughed a bit and answered "we both know that's not true William"

He stretches his arm to take blue out of his shelf and sits down on his bed I look at him and say "tell me the truth, please" he looked at me "I-uhm... I'm sorry but -" I huged him again "it's okay I'm sorry if I have made you uncomfortable" I feel so guilty I don't know why

William

I don't know why I couldn't say the word I love you Fynn I've said it multiple times to Fynn and others Since I was in middle school I could tell people how I feel no matter what feelings I had why can't I just say it now!?

Fynn

Okay... Just fuck it someone smart said one time "get the one you love or you need to love the one you get" I look him in the eyes after the hug and kiss him... Fuck what am I doing?

He is kissing me back he is fucking kissing me back when I stopped kissing William he looked at me shocked and tried to talk while his cheeks turned Really red "Fynn I - uhm" my eyes started watering I ran out the house without even saying a word I slammed the door shut and ran I just ran without knowing where I should go

I got tired of running and went home but my sister wasn't home I texted her but she send a text that shocked me "I can't handle you anymore I can't handle raising a kid on my own and you're my brother not my kid so I'm not responsible for you bye forever - your ex sis"

I started crying I remembered I had a key under the carpet I opened our flat and just burst crying into my room I can't pay for anything the jobs that I would get wouldn't be enough for this expensive house I took everything I wanted to bring with me in big bags and run I run outside no matter where I'm going tonight I don't want to be in this house where my parents were murdered and my sister left me.