Black Boots and a Ring

The Walk

"By the way, you've been uninvited, Cuz all you say are all the same things I did. Copy Cat tryna cop my manner, watch your back when you can't watch min....."

I'm up, Damn! I don't want to get up today, I think I'll just stay in bed for a bit.

Maze! Mom says it's time to get up!

Got it sis, thank you! "Well here we go, time to get the day started with this raging headache and gross stomach."

First I want to check my messages, and..... absolutely nothing. Not even a text from my boyfriend, well fuck you anyway.

I get up and goes to her dresser.

I think I'll wear my Billie Eilish T-shirt and my green skirt. Now time to go down stairs and start cleaning.

Morning sis!

"Morning Maze!"

Where is Caleb? Is he in the dining room eating?

"yeah."

"Looks like I only need to start the laundry and clean the kitchen," I say as I get a basket of dirty laundry and heads downstairs to the washer and dryer. "Do you guys have any dirty laundry in your rooms?"

"Nope"

"No"

"Ba DaDaDa Da, Ba DaDaDaaaa, Don't be that way fall apart twice a day I just wish you could feel what you say, show never tell but I know you too well, got a mood that you wish you could sell." I sing as I continue to walk.

Okay, so now I need to put this in the dryer and then start this, while I put this in the washer. As soon as that's done, I'll come back down here and switch it over, then fold the laundry that is ready.

I fill the sink with hot water, mix it with soap, and begin to load the dishes in. I scrub the dishes, rinse them, and put them to dry.

Now I need to do the counters! I'm going to grab the sponge and start wiping them down. Now it is time to disinfect them with Lysol Wipes.

A few moments pass and I start to sweep the floors.

Okay! I'm glad that sweeping is over, I am going to run down stairs switchover loads, and bring it up stairs so I can fold it while the kitchen floor is drying.

As I start to fold laundry I get a text from someone!

I wonder who it is from.

1 new email from etsy

Just as I expected, just another random email. Well I'll just message him again I guess.

Hey Love, I hope you slept well. I love you and will talk to you when you get up!

I'm just going to finish the laundry and wait until he gets back to me.

Finally! I finished the laundry, now I can relax before work.

"Hey sis! Can you watch Caleb while I take a shower and get ready for work?"

"yeah!"

"thank you sis!"

Time to take a shower "After my shower I go into my room and get dressed and makeup on."

I'm going to check my messages again and see if anyone has messaged me yet. I mean it is 12:00 they should be up by then right?

Absolutely nothing, yet again. I'm just going to lay down for a bit.

"As I lay down I begin to cry."

Why do I feel so alone? I have my family, friends and my animals. Except my family doesn't have the same love language as I do. My friends live a bit far to just hang out for an hour. This has been happening for a while now, my boyfriend is obsessed with work he doesn't even notice me. He, also, lives a bit far away to hangout for an hour. I miss everyone, why can't I stop crying? I've been taking my medications, why am I still like this? I feel like no body loves me or doesn't understand me. I feel like a burden to people close to me, why can't I just disappear? Maybe that is what I'll do, just disappear. First stop crying and go.

Hey sis, I'm going on a walk. Do you want to come with? I

"No thanks Maze, I'll stay here."

Okay, I'm taking Caleb with then.

Caleb let's go! we are going to see pretty things.

I get Caleb in the car and we drive to the Riverwalk and begin our walk. When we get there, there is a man hiding behind an tree and looking at us.

"Why is he looking at us? Should I call someone and let them know? Is he going to try to do something, I need to protect Caleb."

I decide to text mom and dad to let them know where I am.

Hey mom, hey dad. I'm at the Riverwalk with Caleb.

Why are you walking? Why did you take Caleb with? You didn't ask to take your brother with you!

I just wanted to go for a walk so I can think.

Don't you have work today?

Meanwhile in a private chat with dad:

Hey kid, you okay?

Yeah, I'm okay I just need to think.

Think about what? Do you want to talk about it when we get home?

No I'm okay, I called off work today tell mom.

Okay!

Can we go down here sis? "yeah, let's go."

Caleb falls down and gets scratches on his writs.

Are you okay Caleb! " yes, I'm okay. Look! you and I are fall buddies! Your wrists have scratches just like mine do."

Kinda bud, lets get you back to the car and take care of those for you.

We get to the car, I clean him up with the first aid kit in the car, and take us home.