Serie 1 - Prisoner of Him (UNDER REVISION)

TEASER (explicit)

WARNING:
Contains context of sexual harrasment.

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Nagising ako dahil sa labi na dumamdampi sa leeg ko, nang mamulat ko ang mga mata ko ay nakita ko si Nazaron na nakadagan sa akin. I can't remember anything to what have happened earlier, the last thing I remember was that I had an argument with him, everything was blurry since then.

I felt his wet warm lips on my neck, nibbling and licking my bare skin. My head was throbbing and it felt really heavy.

Nazaron's hard body was pressing on mine, his warm skin was brushing against my soft delicate skin.

"Sleeping beauty," he exclaimed as if he was looking forward on me waking up, but I wish I didn't if I would wake up and learning the scariest nightmare I could ever imagine happening to my life right now. "I'm glad you already woke up. " he whispered while still giving soft kisses son my neck up to my jaw. I tried pulling away.

The feeling of his warmth was not inviting, it was rather disgusting, it felt wrong. What happened?

I tried my best to remember what happened, I was at my Boss' party and he came, I was already about to head out when I lost consciousness.

My throat went dry and I felt cold, could that be him?

"S-stop, anong g-ginawa mo sa akin?!" nanginginig na boses kong tanong, itinulak ko siya at na patingin sa hitsura namin.

I wasn't born yesterday, I'm well aware of what just happened. We're both naked, hickeys and bite marks we're visible on my pale skin, and I felt pain on my private area. I took a glance on the bedsheets and saw the red stain, a sign I lost my virginity.

Tears slowly ran down my face, my body was shivering and I found it difficult to breath. How could he do this? I thought he was willing to wait? I thought he would never hurt me?

"You raped me," it wasn't a question but rather a statement, I slowly looked at him. "ginahasa mo ako." I whispered, my voice was hoarse as I tried not to cry loudly infront of him.

"I..." he looked down and took a deep breath, "I didn't mean to." he said calmly.

"What? Hindi mo sinasadya?" Pagku-kwestyon ko, bawat salita na sinasambit ko ay sinisikap kong patatagin ang boses ko.

"I just did what I have to do. You're mine Lu, only mine." he said while staring right at me.

"That's not enough reason for you to force yourself unto me! You drugged and raped me!" matapang kong sambit habang mahigpit na hinawakan ko ang kumot upang takpan ang kahubaran ko. "Kakasuhan kita!" I shouted at him and I started to sob.

He chuckled. "Kakasuhan mo ako? Do you really think you can put me to jail? I can buy justice, I can manipulate the court and do you really think maniniwala ang mga tao? Hm?"

Why is he like this? He looks so proud of what he'd done, it's like it was nothing, he violated me yet he wasn't really aware of it.

Pakiramdam ko ang dumi dumi ko, nasira na ang puri ko ng hindi ko man lang namamalayan.

He stained me.

"You know what I really wanted right Paraluman? It was fucking simple, I was willing to do it but..." he paused. "you started to become distant, and I hated the fact that you are slowly drifting away from me, that made me do it, that's your punishment." his whispered with venom. A sudden change of mood and tone.

Hindi ako kumibo nanatili lang akong umiiyak. Sinubukan niyang hawakan ng mukha ko pero umiiwas ako, nandidiri ako sakanya, sinira niya tiwala ko sakanya, alam kong plinano niya ito.

"I can't believe I'd already made love to you," He smiled like he's proud of the crime he did, making me shiver in fear.

"Y-you raped me, r-rape." I whispered over and over again while silently crying.

He stood up and went out of bed, reaching for a pack of cigarettes, he placed one between his lips then lit it up with a lighter, slowly puffing and it huffing the smoke out.

I continued to sob while looking down, reminiscing the memories that I am already starting to remember.

Akala ko hindi niya sinasadya? Bakit parang wala lang sakanya ang krimen na ginawa niya.

He's a monster! He ruined me, I never thought he could do this, he was so nice at me at first, he treated me well, like a gentleman, but all of it was just an act.

It seems like he wasn't the Nazaron I met, maaring pareho ang hitsura nila pero hindi ko makita sakanya ang Nazaron na nakilala ko.

There's nothing else I felt besides darkness, disgust, and sorrow. I feel dirty. I was hoping and praying that this is just a dream, but it turns out this is the nightmare I can't escape.

Tears continued streaming down my face as I stared at the monster who violated me. My chest is clenching so hard, I want to hurt him, beat him and even kill him.

Gusto ko makapaghiganti pero natatakot ako, diring diri ako na pati ang presensiya niya ay gusto kong mawala, kailangan kong tumakas at magpakalayo-layo.

He stood up and walked near me, he sat down on the side of the bed and tried reaching for my face, pero lumayo ako, hinigpitan ko ang pagkakagawa sa kumot na nakatakip sa kahubaran ko.

"Don't cry," malamig niyang ani. "We'll make it work." he said, making me confuse and stop for a moment.

"Layuan mo ako," pagbabanta ko. "I hate you, I hate your presence." I tried making my voice stronger.

He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

"You need to get use to it now, Love." he smirked then chucked.

"No..." I kept on whispering. I'm scared, I need to get out of here.

Being with my rapist is the last thing I would want, I would never want to be near nor to be touched by him.

"I'm more than willing to keep you," he said making me shiver, then he said the thing that almost made me want to throw up.

"You will marry me, whether you like it or not."

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[January 3, 2022]

I can't believe I'm doing this again.