I have been so deeply in love with you since I was 18 year old. I didn't even know who I was at the time. I wanted to be loved and you were the first to show me any kind of attention. I overlooked so much. The first time you grabbed me I should have ran. I was stupid and young. I went thru many years of emotional abuse and cheating. But you never hit me right? I should be thankful right? But all I feel is like the child hiding in my room because I didn't want to be raped again.
Sad and ridden with anxiety.
Looking back at the last decade together I have so much regret.
But I am a mom... I am not allowed to regret because we have children.
But I look at you and I still love you. How do you love someone so much and the same time hate them!
I feel like I'm suffocating..I have my head underwater and I can't seem to get myself up to breathe.
Is it even worth it anymore? Will this pill I take everyday take my pain away or numb me more to this painful life I'm living.
THESE ARE JOURNAL INSERTS! I am not suicidal or something I am going thru at the moment. I am sharing personal things from my life.
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Dear Diary
General FictionDo you ever wonder how you got to this part in your life? Who would remember you and what impact you have made in this dark lost world... This will be me sharing personal inserts from my journal about my life. A mom and wife who looks like she has i...
