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𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚊 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍 𝚒 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚗𝚘 𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚖 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚕𝚢 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎.. 𝚂𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚏 𝚒 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚑𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗... 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚜𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚍𝚊𝚍 𝚒 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚖𝚢 𝚍𝚊𝚍 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚊 𝚙𝚜𝚢𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚒𝚡 𝚖𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝.. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚊𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚓𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚜... 𝚒 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜..

One days i was cooking with her and i accidently cut myself my mom told me to clean my blood when i use water she's look at me and shes laugh and after i said it was clean she gave me a product who's called "luminol" and add it where the blood was she's turn lf the light and she use a black light to show me that the blood was still there so to clean that blood she's gave me a hydrogene peroxide and she tried again and the blood was not there and i am sure she's not tell me this just to be clean she's want to learn me how to kill my riveal...

About my dad he just want a normal family with a mormal child  and so i tried to act like i am normal he was happy but i know that in he's heart he know that i am acting....
I tried to get an emotion something that give me shame,guily,regret,pain
So i killed a cat in front of people but nothing....
Nothing happen i only forget....

My mom tell me the same thing

"one day you will find someone who make you complete"
"Someone you make you fell special"

These word was my only reason to dont kill myself
They give me a motivation to live...

One day my dad was to tired to stay with us so he want to leave but my mom dont wanna let him she's killed him with the knife and after she's killed herself..

i live alone i have 18year and i i go to a university i was going to my class them i see him he gave me a butterfly in my stomach
he gave me a reason to live....
He will be mine he does not have a choice....