The Space Between a Rock and a Hard Place- 5SOS

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Six

Would You- The Vamps

Ashton Irwin:

To be honest, I had just let it slip. But I still meant it. If anyone else had her, they would see how special Aviana was too. How was I not going to absolutely fall in love with her?

She's kind, talented, thoughtful, and even when she makes impulsive decisions like dying her hair blue, it's so hard to be mad at her. And she looks so incredibly beautiful still.

I know we haven't been seeing each other as frequently now, since the boys and I had jumped right into working on more songs. But why didn't she say it back? Things seemed to be going so well. She came and got us after I crashed my car, and stayed with me while I waited for help.

How does she not have feelings for me when she kissed me pressed against the side of my car? Or when we danced in the dark? Or risked it all in public going to the art museum?

I have no doubt that we have something, but so many questions resided in my head after she couldn't say those three words back. Eight little letters.

It's not something to take lightly either, I understand that. But I was stupid enough to lose her once, I wasn't going to let her slip away again.

Fuck, could I just stop thinking about it? I was going to drive myself to insanity.

Was she having regrets?

What did I do wrong?

It sucks that I can't even tell anyone, or ask them for advice. I know we've got a reputation on us for being a known band, but it would be so much easier if I could just ask one of the guys what they thought. I'm not exactly confident enough to just confront Av about it, and I don't know if I would even want to know her reasoning. That's the cold hard truth I'm not sure I'm ready for.

I guess all I can do is give her time. And I have to stop worrying about it.

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"I, uhm, actually have an idea maybe," I speak up at the group session later that night.

"Well it's just some lyrics, I don't know though, it's kinda repetitive,"

"Hey, an idea's an idea, let's hear it, Ash" Luke reassures me.

I was still feeling off, and felt a little vulnerable using my recent experiences for lyrics.

"Okay, it goes, 'I don't wanna say goodbye to another night, and watch you walk away. I don't wanna let it burn in the city lights, and make the same mistakes' and then from that it would go into a chorus maybe? Like 'I don't wanna waste the night... I don't want to waste it...'" I trail off.

Calum nods, while Luke and Michael still process my lyrics.

"I know it's not that good, just an idea," I panic and say.

"No, I like it, Ashton," Calum responds, picking up a guitar and starts trying out some melodies to fit a chorus.

"Yeah, I like that verse, dude," Mike chimes in.

"Oh, thanks guys," my expression lit up.

"So you said the chorus repeats? Kinda like, 'I don't wanna waste it, don't wanna waste it, I don't wanna waste it, I don't wanna waste the night..." Calum sings, piecing together my fragments, and plucking some possible chords.

"Maybe bring the pitches down a bit, take it in a lower key" Luke suggests.

"Yeah sure," I agree, as it was coming together quickly and I was eager to build the few lines I had into a finished product.

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Cal and ash prolly singing about the same girl? TEAAAAAAAA... lmk if you guys actually listen to the songs I use, because I love finding them to go with the vibes :) Also this one is like the shortest by far sooooo... sorry lol