My patient. ~Irwin~ My therapist Sequel

18.Dreaming or reality?

''You can tell me.'' I smile looking at Luke.

''Promise not to tell or write.'' He meets my gaze.

''Who would I tell...'' I frown. ''Oh right.'' I nod. ''I'm not going to write or tell anyone.'' I smile.

He nods looking at me. ''You see, I'm not the person you think I am, I once lived on the streets and robbed people.'' He sighs.

I feel like a therapist, but I'm not, I'm his friend and i'm here to listen.

''Well I used to sing in a band, its was all fun and games.'' He pauses. ''I met this girl at one of weekend concerts in may, her names was Lacey and she was so beautiful. Well being in the band you get all type of female attention but she was shy but cocky at the same time and I just saw her looking at me.'' He smiles.

''Yeah? What happened?'' I ask and his smile fades away.

''Well this is what happened, I gave her a place to meet. At a bar and the next thing I knew she dragged me out to the back seat of her car and it happened.'' he leans his head back to rest it own the metal material of the lift. 

''Oh.'' I sigh. 

''Yeah, oh.'' He opens his eyes and stares at the ceiling.

''This still doesnt explain anything, it has left me confused.'' I say looking at him.

''Right, yeah.'' He looks at me and sighs. ''I havent been avoiding you guys, I've been avoiding her cause she works in the hospital and she is one of Calums nurses.'' I checks his phone.

''So? I'm sure everything is fine, Lukey.'' I nudge him with my elbow gently.

''I left her.'' He meets my gaze. ''And the worst part is, she came back and was pregnant.'' 

''Whats so bad about that?'' I ask.

''It was my child and this happened 2 years ago.'' He sighs looking away.

''Well you guys broke up, you have a kid, your a dad you should be proud.'' I smile.

''I'm not, because when I found out she was pregnant I left, I was selfish thinking it would ruin my career so I made her leave by cheating on her.'' He sighs for the hundredth time today. ''I dont know what happened to my kid.'' 

''And what happened to the band? how come you work for your mom now?'' I ask.

''The lead singer did drugs and we just found him dead in our tour bus. As much as I loved to sing, I knew that I couldnt become the lead singer, I just thought it wouldnt be right. So I left after that day, I know I messed up and so I searched for my parents, found out mum had been remarried and dad was hapily living with his girlfriend so I went to both of them. They both gave me a life but mum was giving me a job which was what I needed, So I lived with her until I could afford my own apartment and just worked until I met you, and the boys and then saw her and my life is so messed up, this happened two years ago and now its all coming back, I'm such a failure.'' He covers his face with his hands.

''Luke.'' I pull his hands away from his face. ''Luke, look at me.'' I look at the sad boy. ''You arent a mess anymore and you are definitely not a failure, look at you. You have a job, a home, money, friends.'' I smile. ''You shouldnt avoid her, talk to her. She is going to be mad, accept that but she cant be mad forever you know. Its in the past. Catch up, find out about your son, two years ago is a long time without seeing this girl.'' I sigh feeling the lift move.''You never know, she could be so happy to see and you avoiding her could make her sad.'' I tell him and stand up grabbing my bag.

''You're right actually.'' He smiles standing up next to me. ''I'll go see her, ask her out for lunch and catch up.'' He pulls me by the arm and hugs me tightly. ''Thanks.'' I pat him gently on the back and smile.

''What are friends for.'' I hurry out of the lift.

...

''Ashton, I'm home.'' I shout slipping off my shoes.

Oh yeah, He said he was coming home later didnt he? I'll just go have a bath.

I walk into the kitchen and then walk back out. Olivia isnt here, she must be in her room.

''Olivia?'' I call out for her but I get no response.

I hurry up stairs and decide that I'll have a quick shower. Closing the door behind me and stripping, I hop into the shower and let the hot water run down my body. 

I close my eyes and drown out my thoughts.

I quickly wrap one of the towels around my body and wrap one on my head and hurry of to my bedroom. I check my phone.

No miss calls or messages, and its been half an hour.

I slide into my bed pulling the towel I wrapped my hair in and sigh dropping off onto the floor. I scrowl through my phone while liking some posts on facebook and sigh.

''Lia.'' Olivia's voice rings through my room and her soft knock is heard.

''Come in.'' I grab the towel from the floor and start driving my hair with it. ''Can I help you.'' I ask her.

''I was just going to make tea and was wondering if you wanted any?'' She asks. I look at her and she looks away smiling.

''Thank would be nice, thank you.'' I nod and stand going through my underwear draw.

I wait about ten minutes for Olivia to come up but she doesnt so I sigh pulling the wrapped towel of me and start putting my clothes on.

''I'm sorry, oh my god.'' Olivia stands in my door way with eyes closed and two mugs in her both hands.

I squeal grabbing the towel and covering myself. ''Its alright just let me get changed quickly.'' I quickly pull Ashtons t-shirt over my head and pull my panties up my thighs and sigh. ''Its okay, you can look now.'' I laugh nervously.

''I'm really sorry.'' She apologizes putting the mug of tea on the side and turns around walking out.

''No, Olivia. Dont go.'' I walk off to see her.