part one:
the writings on the walls right now, and i'm way too evolved somehow. shit, i probably tore her heart right out. at least that's how it feels right now.
"it's kind of hard to feel out there, there's way too many deals out there."
he said, 'not if you're a millionare,' and i swear i fell in love right there.
then we take it off, he takes off.
he said, "you get me high, without a cause."
i see it his eyes, the love was lost.
"but darling if you stay with me i'll never stop."
i've been waiting too long.
the drug in her veins is too strong. she fell in love with the medicine i gave her, which was my affection.
cassie's been waiting too long.
i built my world with my own two hands. just give that a thought.
i don't even want to make no plans, i don't go outside no more.
he left a dent in my heart that he made with the last words he said.
she stayed by my side, all these nights, cassie don't you overdose.
part two:
"tell me something i won't forget."
"i'm in love with you."
of course i didn't tell him. how could i?
i've never told my own dad i loved him.
i tried to write his name in the rain but the rain never came so i made with the sun.
but he, always comes at the worst time.
"what are you thinking about?"
"why won't you want me back?"
i didn't say that either. i don't have the balls to say that. of course i don't.
i keep on trying to let you go, im dying to let you know, i love you.
i didn't cry when he left at first, but now the love won't die, it hurts.
this time i got to know, why am i replaceable?
why is it that no matter how pretty i am, no matter how many things i say, no matter the amount of times i listen to you talk, you'll leave me?
is it me?
i assume im not in love with you. this is an assumption.
do i not fall in love with people who don't love me back? is it because i hate myself?
not long till the blues hit, not long till he figures out i'm useless.
'sorry that i sound like i'm mad.'
how sad.
but im trying to make myself a better person.
it's not us.
damn, fuck.
just find out what to do,
find out if you love me while i find out how to move,
im stuck in my brain again.
"tell me if you love me.
if you don't then cut me loose."
see i would give my soul away,
not to feel this.
am i really in love with you?
or do i crave you because i'm attached to you?
am i attached to you because you were the first person who loved me?
questions, questions.
i cant answer them.
i think about the message you sent.
disconnecting keeps our hearts safe.
it's easier to say we're just friends.
but i still.
still hold on.
see everyone leaves and your heart breaks.
so done with love, cause like tears in the rain
it means nothing.
"don't fall in love"
love means nothing.
you would think that i would learn not to hold on to something everytime i lose it.
but no, my hand just tightens around the rope.
every
single
time.
his pov:
it's been 24 hours.
i'm getting impatient.
i'm sorry you're scared, the feeling is shared.
i'm so damn dangerous.
i'm going through phases.
i hope you're not one of them.
you fill a hole in my heart. the only problem is, there's other people wanting to fill it too. was your love really just a phase?
what's the problem? are you okay? what happened? was it me?
you say it's not me. i hate when you say this.
i feel like i'm going insane.
swim in the dark,
the water is changing.
floating away, the fear in my brain the feeling is faded.
what's the point of love if it's not real?
hanging on to me and in your feels.
i cant even tell if i feel the same.
i'm falling apart, i know it's denial.
this world is big, it'll kill me if i don't figure it out.
i didnt need much. you ever wonder if it's ever enough?
please cassie, im so anxious and i need you.
please cassie, i'll do anything to breathe, cassie.
go and break all my relationships and break my fucking heart like i did yours.
