Here we are in the rain we are gazing at each other... similar emotions no words being said we are just staring at one another passing words that the wind would take so easily from just their mention. he's there with tears running down his cheeks, they are a strawberry red, you can tell he has so much he wants to tell me but he doesn't
he looks like he's given up
he looks like everything he has ever believed in has lied to him his hair is sticking to his face just like mine we haven't wavered for the twenty minutes we have been here
he opens his mouth as if to speak but I hold my Hand up knowing what he is going to say but I don't let him I don't want to hear it I've felt every emotion that he is feeling right at this moment and he is coming to the realization that he is in fact to late to save whatever we had or could've had. all the promises all the late night whispers all the early morning giggle all the inside jokes it has all come to an end. I open my mouth and take a deep breathe his eyes brighten as if he's expecting a miracle , I'm sorry but that's not what is happening ," I understand I really do bu-" I whisper " then let me explain" he sobs " let me try again at least once" he whispers. I hold my hand up again, he bows his head wether it's shame or disappointment till this day I don't know. " I understand but my heart does not. my heart is crying over a heart that didn't miss a beat when I walked out, over a heart that didn't look back to tell it to come back." I continue to whisper my voice even through the tears that are hidden within the rain " it's not like that I just didn't have the heart-" I stop him " that's exactly the reason. you did have the heart it just was not for me you had the heart for her." it has stopped pouring its drizzling now. I can see him more clearly I see the moment he goes down on his knees I see the moment everything between us breaks as he sobs because he knows what i'm saying is true, he loved her more than me. the moon light shinning on us we can see the reflection off each others eyes. I smile. through y tears , through the memories of the past I smile. he smiles too thinking that ill give him the second chance." sometimes it is easier to let someone you love go, sometimes It hurts more if they stay." it has stopped drizzling by now. now its just us soaked in the middle of the parking lot , the moon shining down on us. I take a step towards him and offer my hand. he takes it and gets up " will you give me a second chance" he says it with ope in his eyes, gripping my hands while staring into my eyes. he has a smile, the smile I once fell in love with. I take a deep breath and i whisper so low it shouldn't be heard not even by some so close so delicate that even a leaf could break it " no" he steps back , his grip on me leaves and I feel cold but I can't want it back it won't be fair not me and much less to her. I wipe my tears and smile once again " wha-why?" he question while his tears continue. a breathy laugh leaves my lips as I look at him " it wouldn't be fair" I bow my head and laugh a little more" it wouldn't be fair not to me ad especi-" at that moment we hear a car approaching and I know she's there. I look up at him and start taking steps back " and especially not to her." I turn around and walk to my car I see as he falls to the ground once again sobbing. I drive away as she runs a hugs him.....
