☁︎︎❥𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗲, 𝘁𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗶𝘁|⌫ - 𝘗𝘦𝘣𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘉𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘈𝘜

Serendipity

Serendipity
(n.) finding something good without looking for it

Tw! Implied suicide attempts (again trust me it's for the happies we need the sads for the happies), discussions of drug withdrawal (I promise happies)

This is a heavy one. It talks about 3 different accounts, just— be aware

General POV:

Allister opened her eyes in a forest. Ahead of her, was a lake. She immediately tried to close them, to pinch herself to wake up.

Instead, she only opened her eyes again to find herself closer to the lake, her jacket strewn on the ground, her shoes had been taken off as well.

Behind her, she knew, stood 5 statues, all looking in different directions, yet somehow all looking at her.

She closed her eyes, she opened her eyes. She was waist deep in the water. Tommy was calling out to her.

Closed. Open. She was being pulled back by Tommy.

He hugged her. She turned around and hugged him back.

"I love you, Tommy."

"No you don't, not yet."

"I didn't mean to."

"I know that now."

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The wind whipped at Allister's hair, the water beneath her was cold. She was at the beach. She was 14.

This was the first time. From the water we rose and to the foam on the ocean we shall return.

There must have been something so serene about being brought to her end by water. Something Allister must have found pleasing.

She'd attempted first when she was 14. Florence was the one who found her, Allister had stopped herself and she was crying outside her house.

It wasn't as if the lake scene was something new, whenever Allister went off her medication it seemed to just.. happen.

Withdrawal. Landon never even knew about it.

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The bath. Pushing herself under the water. Almost passing out.

Hannah called her once. Twice. Four times. Texted Florence. Seven times.

Hospital.

She was 16. Allister didn't know much about that time, except that her parents were coming home.

That would've been a nice surprise for them.

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The lake. With Tommy. She'd gone to fuck things up for herself again, because her life felt too happy.

Too different from what she was used to.

That plus the withdrawal.. thank god Tommy went to look for her.

The lake was the one Allister regretted the most. Florence had always been the one to save her. This time she had to drag Tommy down with her.

And she did love Tommy, but she also didn't. Not yet, like he had said in the dream.

Allister really wanted to kiss Tommy. Just.. seal the fate of her dreams. Share Christmas in New York. Have their 18th birthday just to themselves, watch a broadway show, stream The Office for hours on end.

She wanted a simpler life, without whatever anxieties she had.

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"Tommy?" Allister asked.

"Yeah Allie?"

Allister turned to look at him, tears welling in her eyes, her dreams from the night before leaving her shaken.

"Allie, are you alright?" Tommy looked at her with concern.

Allister nodded, moving to hug him. "Thank you so much. For everything. I'm— thank you and Ranboo and Toby and Wil.."

"Allie, why are you thanking me?"

"Everything. The support, the.. lake, just being my friends the," she laughed a bit. "Money. Thank you."

"You know you don't need to thank me for that right?" Tommy murmured, resting his head on Allister's. "Just being a good friend."

"And you're the best at it." Allister said into his chest.

They both smiled.

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"I've decided," Allister declared while making grilled cheeses for everyone. "To invest in online therapy."

"That's probably a good idea. I'm proud of you." Ranboo said.

"Stop saying you're proud of me I'll start crying."

"Allister, you're a great friend, maybe as good a friend as you are a cook, and you've overcome many really difficult challenges in the past month. I'm so proud of the progress you've made." Ranboo told her jokingly, yet also genuinely.

"Fuck you fuck you fuck you I am not almost crying." Allister blinked back the tears in her eyes.

"Do it yourself."

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"Can I ask what prompted the.. thankfulness earlier? And the therapy?" Tommy asked. "Don't get me wrong I'm happy— just, wanna know what have you the idea."

Allister sighed. "Probably a good time to tell you. The.. lake... wasn't exactly my first— rodeo? Florence can tell you all about that.. when I'm off my meds for a while it's like withdrawal and a whole thing—"

Tommy cut her off by hugging her. "You don't need to finish, I get it. Just remember we all care for you, love you. At least, if I can't speak for anyone else, I do."

"Stop it I'm going to cry!" Allister complained.

"Then cry, it's good to cry." Tommy laughed.

"Fuck OFFFFFFFFF!"

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"You all are so kind to me." Allister said. The three were preparing a Ranboo stream.

"Yeah and you repay us in food cause we're all shit at cooking." Toby adjusted the microphone.

"Fair enough. Did you guys enjoy MCC?"

"Yeah, it was awesome!" Ranboo exclaimed.

"Cool, cool."

"Why didn't you partake in it? I know for a fact Scott sent you an invite." Toby asked.

"Toby I'm on a fucking laptop." Allister deadpanned.

Toby laughed. "Probably should've seen that one coming."

"Yeah this is your fucking house, I'm not about to drive 2 hours back to Brighton or whatever it is to just play mcc and come back."

"Hey Ranboo, aren't you using your VTuber for this stream?"

"Yup." He responded.

"Ooooooo cool. I want to make a VTuber but I am very much not faceless." Allister chuckled.

"You don't need to be faceless to— whatever." Ranboo laughed.

"Anyway, Summer of '58 is an amazing game, I love it so much. Also, add Layers of Fear to the list of games you need to play."

"Oh god that one's scary." He complained.

"Stop whining."

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Notes:
Helphelphelphelphelphelphelp
So I do have a timeline I'm following
It's currently September 2nd
I need Juliet to appear suddenly on September 5th, meaning I kinda need this book to shut up in 3 days
But like that's far too little time
Cause the overwhelming (one) response was a slow burn and 34 chapters is not enough for a slow burn so like I'm debating like more head space Allister to get the "shit I really really really like him" out of the way?? Try to get it to 40?? Idk it seems touchy but maybe I can just get established feelings and then be able to start YUWYO and also I need to catch up OYYGC but my inspiration for it is just 📉

It's okay Rome wasn't built in a day
Enjoy as we're nearing the end of this book
😁👍