Just Pull The Trigger || newt

Chapter 10

"So what was so exciting earlier that minho had to wake me for?" I questioned the boy I was in love with.

Newt stood up and went and got two glasses of water, one for me, the other for him.

"To be honest there was no real reason, other than a package had come up in the box with your name on it." He spoke with care, probably because he knew how emotional today had been.

"Oh" was all I could get out.

"Oh" newt repeated. "Oh indeed"

"Why oh?" I asked curiously

"Why oh?" He repeated again. "Oh because of the mysterious package, addressed to you and you only."

This was all very confusing as we were practically repeating the same conversation over and over.

"So do you know what was in this package then?" I questioned him.

Newt took a sip of his water and handed me mine. "Well. There was this note attached to it. It wasn't my fault...minho said you wouldn't mind....but then when we read it.....oh Jess, I'm so sorry."

"Newt..." I started slowly "what-what did it say?"

Lost for words all newt could manage was "promise you're not going to do anything stupid or -"

Cutting in I shouted "just tell me,please"

"About earlier,when gally said it...it was you, the note. He... he was right" the next words sent me over the edge, completely. "You killed Adam"

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NEWTS POV:

It wasn't fair.

She would die or be told the truth.

I loved her and the truth would surely do no better.

Jess deserved to know.

Those words were forced out of my mouth. "You killed Adam".

Jess may well have ordered Gally to kill Adam but I'm ordering myself to kill WICKED.

As soon as those words were forced out of my mouth, those final words, I knew she was Broken.

Jess was well and truly broken both inside and out.

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JESS POV:

What had happened these last few days. I'd arrived at the glade and collapsed and was unconscious for days. I'd sliced the side of my head. And now I was blacking out.

Overthinking had really done it for me.

'I was a murderer' were my last inside head words before I was gone.

Was I awake and unafraid, asleep or dead?

No, blacked out like an on marching black parade, marching into darkness.

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My head was pounding. Not pain but aching for something, someone.

"Newt..."

I tried to sit up. Tried to move but I was so dizzy I didn't know what I was doing.

I remember crying. Or blacking out as he said... As newt said.....

And now I had woken.

My eyes were all blurry, nothing was staying still.

I knew where I was, the medjacks. In one of beds and my head resting on a fresh smelling pillow.

I gradually began to stand up and as I did so the coolness of the floor hit me like a blow to the head.

My feet were trembling for no apparent reason.

Feelings matterd no more.

I felt wrong. Something wasn't right.

Slowly, very, I moved one foot I front of the other and with each passing step, my vision became less and less in focus.

I reached for the nearby table.

Missing it, I fell.

My head, pounding in pain, was now lolling around on the ground.

What was wrong with me?

Before I fully lost consciousness, a pair of gentle hands reached down and gave me the support I was looking for.

He was there. When I needed him most, he was there.

At my side, newt always was.

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"She's dying" shaky yet whisperd, his words. So real I thought I was already awake.

I was dying.

If not, I was dead already.

Newt, the boy I was in love with, knew this.

I loved him and he loved me, too much that neither could let go.

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NEWTS POV:

I didn't eat

I didn't sleep

I didn't do anything for the following four days.

Just sat there. Watching the girl I was in love with crumble before my eyes.

Minho had already told me she was dying. I knew if things were going to keep going the way they had been for the past week, jess would be dead within the month.

With absolutely no sleep my eyes were weighing me down.

When I saw her eyes lighten up, the colour go back into her face, that would be when I could sleep properly.

"...newt...." The mumbling came from her half closed mouth.

Suddenly it was completely alert.

She was about to wake up.

I kept on telling myself this for the next 2 days as Jess kept on with the mumbling.

Each time minho had come to keep me company he had tried to force me into sleep. Each time I refused and eventually just slept by Jess's side.

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