Sex Therapist - BTS KTH

Chapter One

It's officially my 24th birthday. I looked to the side seeing my clock, 12:01am. I sighed a little the body next to me stirring slightly. The distance in the bed between us is pretty evident. Nearly 3 years into this relationship and everything's slowly going down hill. I turned my back to them, looking at the wall. Little thoughts flashing through my head, it's been nearly 2 months since we last had sex. Maybe today will be different like a birthday present. It was sad to think sex may only happen because it's my birthday. It's not like it's amazing sex for me. I've settled for what it is. It used to be that we could go for hours but over the last year and a half it's been lacking. I rarely enjoy myself if I ever did, always saying I did enjoy it when I really didn't. As long as they having a good time that's good enough for me. Maybe I've just got worse at sex? It only lasts around 20 minutes now, and that's on a good day. Maybe that's why we don't have sex as much anymore? I've got worse at pleasing them, It's very much like riding a bicycle I guess. If you don't do it often then you slowly start to forget.

I woke up and didn't feel any different than usual. Slightly numb to everything. I yawned quietly putting a hand over my mouth, it's 9am and I start making breakfast like usual. Nothing special, toast and coffee. I hear a loud yawn and in they come. "Good morning sweetheart" I plaster a smile on placing a cup of coffee on the side in front of them. "Thank you" a sleepy voice says picking the cup up and sitting down, taking a small sip. "So Haneul what should we do today to celebrate?" I ask placing the toast down and sitting down myself opposite him. "We could go out drinking with some friends?" He smiled to me munching on a piece of toast. "That would be nice" I smile a little. He hasn't even said happy birthday yet. I know 24 isn't a special number but I'd appreciate hearing him say something nice to me. I push past the feeling and finish my drink and toast. I look to the clock 9:36am. This day will go on forever.

Haneul headed to work for a while to finish some paper work. I didn't mind being home alone. It didn't really feel different from him being here with me. We usually do our own things. I messaged a few friends about going out tonight maybe going to a club and enjoying ourselves like the times before we all grew up and got houses and jobs. I was excited to see everyone again it had been a while. They all messaged a happy birthday and little sweet messages which was nice. It reminded me that today was actually my birthday not a 'normal' day. Maybe I should put some extra effort in. Especially if we are going out. Running the bath and getting a fresh razor I decided on a little spa time. The music blasted through the bathroom as I shaved my legs last. Everything was clean shaven. Everything. If that didn't call Haneuls attention I don't know what will. I got out the bath and dried off adding moisturiser to my freshly shaved skin. I will admit I felt a little luxurious whilst doing so.

The night was approaching as I sat in front of my mirror applying makeup. I wanted something classy with a little glam. Just to spice things up. Looking at myself in the mirror I was happy with it all, I looked well put together. I just straightened my hair, not bothering with curls that would soon drop out. My hair fell down my back reaching about midway. It was long but it was healthy and silky, I loved it being long. The dress I had picked out was laid across the bed, a white mid thigh skin tight dress, It was slightly glittery and low cut, made from a silk like material it flattered my body type well. It hugged my slight curves and amplified my chest. I slipped it on feeling more elegant, a white clutch and a pair of shiny heels later I was ready. One last glance in the mirror and I was happy, I don't particularly get chance to dress up anymore. Standing in my kitchen I was waiting on Haneul to come so we could get a lift to the club. Everyone was waiting for us. Here he is, in a black button up and jeans with his hair styled and a little makeup on. He looked good. More put together than usual. I smiled and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Off we go to get drunk and have fun.

A few drinks in and a couple shots later me and the girls were on the dance floor having a good time, laughing and talking. They even got me a birthday girl badge and pinned it to my dress. I was having a blast. They really remembered how to party, and how to make the night fun for everyone. Haneul had been sat at a booth with the rest of the girls boyfriends drinking and talking, none of them really feeling like dancing, that didn't bother me much I enjoyed dancing alone sometimes. "Another round of shots!" Nari shouted giggling and swaying towards the bar ordering whatever they had in that we could shot. I was laughing and grinding to the song playing in the back when I felt hands on my waist. "Happy birthday" a voice shouted, I turned around seeing a strange man, "thanks!" I said smiling at him, not wanting to lead him on, especially with Haneul watching so close by. I quickly turned back to the girls when Nari came bouncing over holding multiple shots in her hands. I laughed as we all downed them and made sour faces, gagging a little but still giggling to one another clearly getting drunker as the night went on.

The night was coming to an end, me and Haneul said goodbye to whoever was left and got in a lift home, I was drunk by now and giggling along, Haneul didn't seem too drunk, which gave me hope of something happening when we got home. I smiled to him and kissed his lips trying to hint to him. He just smiled at me. We got through the door and I took my shoes off and pushed Haneul to a wall kissing him, nibbling at his ear slightly. "Not tonight, I'm getting a headache from the loud music and drinks" he smiled to me. I just looked at him and nodded slightly. We both headed slowly to the bedroom. He immediately stripped of his clothes, walked into the bathroom to wash his face and put some comfy clothes on before getting into bed. "Goodnight love I hope you had a good birthday" and that was it. That's all it took for my night to get slightly ruined. I walked into our bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Sighing I slid out of the dress and washed my face. Drinking a few glasses of water to try avoid a bad hangover. I laid down in bed, looking to see him fast asleep already. "Our sex life really needs to get better" I whispered to myself before rolling onto my side and hoping to fall fast asleep.