Sex Therapist - BTS KTH

Chapter Three

Today was the day, I only had around 2 hours before my session and I was stood in my towel looking through my clothes, I wanted to wear something quite nice. I didn't want too look like a slob in-front of the therapist. Then again I don't know how this session works, do I lay down on a couch like you always see in Tv shows? Or do I sit at a desk? I'm not sure so I am best sticking with a safe option, ripped jeans and a nice fitted long sleeve t-shirt will do its casual but not too casual as to show lots of cleavage or too much skin. I looked in the mirror doing a double take, natural makeup and I even straightened my hair to waste time. I happily walked to get my shoes and car keys, I locked the door to my house and got in the car setting the GPS to where I needed to be.

I pulled up to the building and parked my car, getting out I grabbed my phone and purse before heading inside. I walked through the main doors to the receptionists desk, "Hello, I am here to see Dr Kim?" I asked a little nervous. The older lady sat at the desk smiled to me and handed me some papers on a clipboard, "You must be Min Ari? I don't recognise your face dear so you must not be a regular client, I am Mrs Jun shout if you need any help filling it in" She said smiling, I nodded smiling back to her. What a nice lady, her smile is very gentle and kind. "These forms are just to help Dr Kim understand what it is your looking for and some basic questions" I nodded and took a seat looking at the papers. Just generic questions, full name, birth date, my relationship status, what I want from this experience, If I have ever had this kind of therapy before. I quickly filled the questions in and walked back to the woman handing her my papers. I took a seat waiting for my appointment and Mrs Jun did whatever she was doing on her computer, probably entering my data into the system. I looked at my watch to see It was 1:58pm, I stood up and walked back to the desk, "I am sorry I forgot your email asked me to pay in advance" I said quickly, a little embarrassed I managed to forget. After scanning my card the phone rang, Mrs Jun picked it up and spoke to someone I can only presume to be Dr Kim. "You can go on through, its down the hallway last door on the left" She said smiling. I nodded smiling to her before heading off down the hallway.

I stood outside the door, looking at the writing. 'Dr Kim Sexual Therapist'. I knocked on the door and heard a deep voice from inside shout me to come in. I quietly opened the door walking in and looking down before turning around to shut the door. I didn't expect the therapist to be a man its making me a little nervous to look at him, what if he is an old man! I breathed in a little before turning around, the room was spacious, a few chairs and couches, a wooden desk with a computer and a phone on it. Thats when he caught my eye, he had his back to me looking out a window. He looked young, quite tall and broad in his shoulders, he looked a little muscular under his buttoned shirt. He turned around and It felt like all the air in my lungs had stopped working. He was very handsome, he had these round kind of glasses on, they made his features come together very well. He looked very young to be a sexual therapist. "Please take a seat wherever is comfortable" his voice is very deep, he smiled a boxy kind of smile. I nodded a little and sat on one of the chairs, he walked over slowly taking a seat on the opposite side of the room. "So you must be Min Ari?" He asked smiling, "Yes" I nodded, I don't know how to act, do I call him sir? I'm a little confused on the procedure here.

He opened his legs slightly, looking down at his papers "I read your answers to our questions, under what you expect you wrote about wanting to help your love life with your boyfriend?" He asked looking at me and then at the notes he had in his lap. "Yes, it seems over the last year and a half he hasn't been interested or hes done very quickly" I could feel myself blushing slightly thank god for foundation and concealer. Dr Kim nodded and he wrote a quick note down, "How long have you and your boyfriend been together and how long has it been since you last had sex" He looked at me tilting his head slightly, "We have been together for nearly 3 years and its been around 3 months now" I gulped slightly not knowing if that sounded bad or not, he nodded writing another note down. "When you say done quickly do you mean he is the only one enjoying it?" he pushed his glasses up slightly as he looked at me. "Yes, I don't enjoy it. Come to think of it I don't think I have ever truly enjoyed it, I think I made myself believe I did to make him happy" I sighed a little rubbing my arm, this felt so very awkward to be talking about but after those reviews this man must be amazing.

He wrote another few notes before looking at me again, his eyes were beautiful. Even his smile was handsome. Oh god, what am I thinking? I have Haneul at home, and hes the man I have been in love with for years. "So. Should I help you focus more on pleasing him? Or you pleasing yourself?" Dr Kim smiled, but I just stared. I don't know anymore. I want to make Haneul happy, but I also want to be happy. "I-I really don't know. I would love to make him more happy, I don't know whats happened to him lately, it used to be hours now I'm lucky if its 20 minutes. I feel as though its my fault. That I have somehow got worse or I am to unattractive for him" I mumbled slightly but Dr Kim heard me and nodded slowly looking a little sad whilst writing notes. Why does he look sad?

After a few note scribbles and a little cough he looked up at me smiling again, "Is your boyfriend the only person you have ever slept with?" He smiled a little before looking down at his lap whilst waiting for me to respond, "Yes. I was late to loose my virginity compared to some people" it was my turn to look down, I was a little embarrassed being 21 and a virgin was not fun. "I felt like I wouldn't ever loose my virginity. Haneul was already 28 at the time and had already lost his virginity years before then. I was very inexperienced to it all, I never really cared about trying new things with people or experimenting with one night stands, or casual sex with people until I met him" I sighed a little, looking up to see Dr Kim scribbling more notes down before looking at me with a sympathetic smile.