Sex Therapist - BTS KTH

Chapter Seven

After collecting everything I owned I moved them all into a small apartment, It wasn't much but this would be my new home. I had my savings to keep me here, every penny I had managed to save the last 3 years would be going into making this place my own and I was fine with that, my main issue was trying to make my money last. So my next session will have to be my last, I can't keep spending my money when I don't have a steady income, I will have to tell Dr Kim after my evaluation that I won't be attending anymore. It makes me sad to think I will miss them dearly. I'll miss Dr Kim, I was getting so comfortable around him and I felt happy talking to him and seeing him so often even if it was only for an hour and to talk about my non-existent sex life. I laid on my bed sighing only one more day till my session, I don't know what to do with myself until then. Turning to my side I yawned and decided on taking a nap to make the time fly by.

I woke up and looked at the time, I had slept for 11 hours? Wow. I got up stretching and heading to take a relaxing shower, I had a few hours till my session so I could take my time. Once I'd finished in the shower I began texting the girls and letting them all know what had happened between me and Haneul and how my plan was to go out tonight and get very drunk and possibly bring someone home, it would be one last charade before I had to stop them all together. Nights out are usually quite expensive and I really shouldn't go but one last time won't hurt. I looked at the bags all across my new room, packing them away and finding todays outfit choice, big shirt and shorts, the shirt covered the shorts a fair amount but it wasn't indecent, I walked into the bathroom not bothering with makeup or properly doing my hair, I just tied it up and pulled a few strands at the front, today was my last session and I didn't have the energy to dress up for it.

I pulled up outside the familiar building grabbing what I would need and heading inside. "Hello Ari!" Mrs Jun beamed happily, I walked straight over to her smiling, "Hello, here for my appointment" I smiled paying and taking my seat. I crossed my legs looking at my phone to some new messages from Haneul apologising and begging for forgiveness, I scoffed a little blocking his number from my phone. Once a cheater, always a cheater. "Ari, head on through Dr Kim is waiting" Mrs Jun called out, I stood up smiling to her walking down the hallway for the last time, and seeing the door I love to see. 'Dr Kim Sexual Therapist' I felt a pang of sadness knowing this will be the last time I see those words written on the door. I knocked gently and waited to hear the familiar voice call me in.

I took my seat crossing my legs and getting ready to hear about my evaluation. "So todays the day!" Dr Kim smiled happily sitting down with notebook and pen in hand. "So the evaluation will take around 20 minutes to discuss and then we can talk about anything else afterwards until the session is over" he smiled to me, god would I miss that smile. I nodded waiting for him to start, he quickly opened his notebook finding the correct pages and sipped on a cup of tea.

"Min Ari, 24, currently in a relationship that's unfulfilled and has been for a few months. Ari is a young woman who is open to experiencing new things and craves physical romance and desire. Classic signs of paranoia when a relationship changes after a long period of time. Common sexual desires, some may need to be further expanded on with time, shows signs of enjoying possession and aggression in the bedroom, wether it be the one being aggressive or having someone be aggressive towards them. Mostly called a switch. Mostly leans towards the submissive role, as from past experience with little time to test the dominant side. Ari seems to have not had a lot of experience with positions or roles in the bedroom, we have talked about wanting to try new positions and activities inside and outside of the bedroom. Being open minded to trying new things gives and idea of wanting more, possibly needing more from a partner....."

Dr Kim carried on for a while longer explaining what he was thinking based on my answers to questions and things we have talked about. He really sounded like he knew exactly what I needed and wanted. I couldn't help but close my legs together a little tighter at some things, letting my mind wander a little and imagine myself on those scenarios. Being dominated, pinned to walls and beds. Slight possessiveness. It all made me slightly weak. "Ari?" His deep voice pulled me from my head, "yes?" I replied rather quickly, he chuckled slightly "does that all sound correct?" He smiled tilting his head slightly, I nodded and could feel my face go slightly pink. "I do have to say one thing is, well now it's incorrect" I say clearing my throat slightly and messing with my fingers, "I am no longer in a relationship, I caught him cheating on me. Much like I suspected" I looked down to my hands, and sighing slightly. It does sting to think he could throw our relationship away like that, but I already knew it wasn't perfect and something was happening behind my back.

Hearing a chair move I could see Dr Kim's shoes in front of me, a hand coming down to my face and fingers lifting my chin to look upwards. "He did what?" His voice sounded deeper than usual, no smile on his face, it had an expression I hadn't ever seen on his face before and I couldn't read his eyes. At all.  "He.. he cheated on me" I mumbled out again, my eyes couldn't leave his, it felt like he was staring into my soul, not just looking at me. It looked like something flickered in his eyes when I said it again, it looked almost like anger. "You didn't deserve that. He is missing out on an amazing woman and let you down. Know you are worth so much more, and deserve so much more, you just need to find the man that can give you that. Fulfil your needs... sexual and otherwise" as he spoke his eyes never left mine, his fingers still on my chin, his taller frame leaning straight over me, I could feel my heart racing, if this man didn't already give me palpitations he definitely was right now.

It felt like his whole body, the way he was speaking, the way he was looking at me, holding my face, it all radiated this type of energy that was making me feel things. Things I can't say I've ever felt before. Knots in my stomach, a thumping heart, my legs needed to be as tight as they could be. He was turning me on. Badly. I could feel myself getting more and more turned on the longer he leaned over me, his hair falling into his face slightly, his usual calm demeanour was gone. "Thank you" I said, still staring into his eyes, I needed to look away, break this tension but I didn't want too. I wanted more. I wanted him.