everyone tells me "you'll get over him"
"give it time, your feelings for him will fade"
"you won't be in love with him forever"
but it's been nearly 7 years since i fell in love with him, and even after being in a relationship with him at 16 and breaking up, and then getting back together at 18 to breaking up again, my feelings for him are still very strong. sure it's only been 10 months since we separated, but the hurt is still there, i still feel that same heart aching feeling some days. i miss him. i think he's the type of person who no matter what goes on between us, no matter how much time passes by, he's always going to be probably the most important boy in my life. i don't think my feelings for him will ever truly fade away, even if 10 years in the future we don't end up getting a happily ever after together, and we end up with other people, i think i will still have a lot of love for him. part of me truly wishes that in the end it will be me & him. i know i'm young and still have lots of other people to meet and lessons to learn, but i've always wanted it to be him, since the first time we ever made eye contact, i wanted it to be him. i think i'm so lucky to have had the opportunity to get close to him, because he's been nothing but kind to me, he's not the type of ex who will hurt you after the relationship ends and talk bad about you to his friends, he's the opposite of that, he didn't cut me out of his life and because he said that i too will always hold a special place in his heart; we talk still, every now and then.
he likes to congratulate me for my achievements, he tells me he's proud of me, because he knows how insecure i am and how i don't usually take on challenges because i'm scared. when he feels like something is off about me, he'll ask me "what's wrong" and help me out, i can say he still cares about me, and for that i'm so lucky. but i miss him, i miss him every day. even though right now isn't for us, i hope that after growing on our own and maturing a bit more, i hope one day we will be able to find our way back to each other, and do it right this time .
