it's the same with us right now
here
in this place where love communes with itself
I want to stick my tongue into the center of the hole
and taste the gooey wetness
I want to feel it on face
cold and fresh like drizzle
life is beautiful
pure and untouched
nature
human nature
people can't drink water from the tap anymore
but they still eat things that once had beating hearts
what are we putting into our bodies
it's the hair on our heads
memories stored inside tiny follicles
maybe there are too many choices
too many words to describe what is really a simple life
we weave so many webs
just trying to say I love you
I watch them dancing
their minds exploding with ecstasy
all they want is to feel connected
to feel love
do they realize even now that they are only just connecting with themselves
I want to be high
I want to dissolve
I want to wrap my arms around them as they become the thumping, pulsing
heartbeat of existence
is it wrong
is it wrong to want to kiss them and fuck them and feel them
is it wrong to fall to my knees and surrender
am I giving up or am I growing up
I met him on the internet
he wore a green jumpsuit with a bunny rabbit in his pocket
he saved the easter bunny from certain death
and then he danced for hours
whenever I looked over at him
he was smiling
and I was smiling too
I could feel the guy with the glasses watching me
I think he was looking right into my eyes but I couldn't see his
even when you can't see you can feel
trust that
I felt vulnerable
I looked away and then looked back at him
he was always staring right into my eyes
maybe it was my pink tutu
maybe it was the black triangle about my sex
maybe it was a kindred soul finding a kindred soul
I should read more
I should know more
turned into I am reading more
and I am knowing more
and then it started happening
it was beautiful discovery
I was giving birth to life
I could feel it flooding through my open heart
the tiny blue men in my mind were getting stronger
but they weren't holding on so tight anymore
they we actually laughing and dancing
and smoking lots of pot
they were doing whatever they wanted and I didn't care
I just watched them doing their thing
and I became
actually
amused
but seriously
seriously
seriously has become a four letter word for me
and it has been replaced with intensely
intensely
divinely
purely
blissfully content
growing
emerging
exploring
devouring it
all of it
all of it
every bite of it
it's time
it's time
don't forget to breathe
push
push
just a little harder
I can see
I can see
I can see
and I could go on like this forever
